Saturday, December 28, 2013

12/23 - 12/29

So I decided to take the whole week off.  I really needed a break.  I had no child care kids this week.  I really wanted to eat what I want, sleep in, get things done off my to do list, and enjoy family time.  I was able to accomplish all that.  I knew my exercise would be interrupted anyway with Christmas and our trip the coast.  It was a perfect week to take off.

I need to start up next week.  My schedule will be interrupted with New Years and also the following week with Rob in St. Louis.  So this is my loose plan I really hope I can stick to!  As early morning will be out for me (at least running outside or going to the gym in the mornings) when Rob is away.

Next week:  Monday: Early morning run  Tuesday:  Early morning run  Wednesday:  Afternoon run  Thursday:  Group Power  Friday:  Group Ride  Saturday: Swim  Sunday: Rest

Following week:  Monday:  Early morning workout video  Tuesday:  Long run while Kara is in preschool  Wednesday:  Evening swim or workout video  Thursday:  Evening stationary bike or else video  Friday:  Workout video or rest  Saturday: Swim  Sunday:  Run

For races Hailey & I plan on doing Shamrock 5K (have to register next week).  Then I would like to do Beaver Freezer Tri in April, Stayton Tri in May, and either Portland Women's Tri in August or the September Tri at Foster Lake.  If I had it my way, I'd do a marathon next fall, but can't commit to that yet.  It gets expensive!

I hate workout videos so I need to find one I can tolerate.

Sunday, December 22, 2013

12/15 - 12/22

It was a very good week of exercise and I am trying to remember everything I did because I didn't record it all week!

Monday - Rest

So tired after a busy weekend.  I just couldn't get out of bed before 6:30.

Tuesday - Ran 4 miles

Made it out of bed and had a really good run on my normal 4 miler through the Sumpter neighborhood.  Not as cold and thankfully not rainy either.

Wednesday - Swam 1 hour

My swimming girls were back and the other triathletes switched to Tuesday/Thursday throughout the holidays so the pool was pretty quiet.  I was so tired when I woke up.  I almost went back to bed several times.  Once I got in the pool and started swimming, I was thankful I decided to show up.

Thursday - Group Power 1 hour

Power is getting so much better now that I have been going consistently.  Chest presses, shoulders, and triceps are still the toughest, but I have increased my weight.  Wish I could do Power two days a week, but I can't fit it in.  They don't offer many evenings and I have not been able to go Friday afternoons or Saturday mornings in a very long time.

Friday - Stationary Bike 50 minutes

I had planned on going to Ride.  The alarm even went off and I didn't think I would fall back asleep.  But I did.  We had a pretty open weekend so I knew I could go later.  I biked on the stationary bike at the gym Friday night.  The gym is so dead during the time especially around the holidays.  It was a good workout.

Saturday - Ran 6 miles

Beautiful afternoon.  Warm and in the 50's and even sunny.  I had a great run through the Welcome Way neighborhood into the Sumpter neighborhood.  It was a great run.

Sunday - Ran 4 miles

Did the Skyline to Davis run that I haven't done in a very long time.  I still feel like that run is cursed because I always have to stop on Skyline and walk every single time.  I think the hills are not as noticeable because they are gradual, but it is pretty uphill.  Once I get to Davis I am totally fine.  My sides ached on Skyline and legs getting weaker.  Plus I wore pants and I was overdressed.  Yesterday I ran in shorts and I was fine.  It felt colder in the air today, but I am pretty sure it was the same.  I was glad I got a run in Sunday afternoon because I have been really lazy on Sundays lately and skipping my runs.

Friday, December 13, 2013

12/9 - 12/15

I haven't even blogged about this week and it's been a pretty amazing week of exercise.  I have not been this motivated or consistent in a long time.  I am really hoping Christmas does not throw me off.

Monday - Ran 4 miles

I got out the door around 6.  It was pretty crisp and cool, but I loved the winter air.  I was running on snow a bit. I was a little surprised to find out school was delayed, but there were icy spots still on the roads.

Tuesday - Ran 5 miles

Ran while Christina had Kara.  Great run.  I did a little bit of a different route through the Welcome Way neighborhood.  The air was still crisp and I was getting cold by the end.  But it was still a good run.

Wednesday - Swam 1 hour

My swimming buddies were not there.  I didn't do the other triathletes workouts.  I did the regular warm up of 300 swim, 200 pull, and 100 kick.  Then I did 10 x 100's with every other as pull.  This pretty much took up the whole time.  I did a cool down as well.  I kind of liked swimming alone, but hopefully the girls are back next week.

Thursday - Power

I had to leave for the last 2 tracks because Abby was getting dropped off early.  It was a good workout.  Very similar to last week.  It feels better doing strength training once a week rather than missing a bunch of weeks.

Friday - Group Ride

Almost decided to sleep, but the alarm went off twice and I was pretty much up.  Really good workout.  Legs hurt at first.  I have not biked that hard in awhile.  Once I got going, I was totally fine.  I need to go to Ride more often as well.

Saturday & Sunday - Rest

Very busy.  My parents were here.


Tuesday, December 3, 2013

12/2 - 12/9

Monday - Rest

One of the kids woke up at 3 AM and I woke up to make sure everything was OK.  It was not a big deal, but my brain was pretty "up" and it took hours to fall back asleep.  When I did, I didn't sleep all that deep. I  woke to two children going to the bathroom at two different times and the paperboy.  I was tired pretty much all day.

Tuesday - Ran 3 miles

I so didn't want to run today.  Just in that zero motivation factor and start up again after a few days off following a race.  It was a harder run even though it was only three miles.  The air is much colder than normal and it's getting even colder the next couple days with possible snow on the valley floor.  After I ran again, I had that nausea feeling again, but it didn't last as long.  I am probably not drinking enough water.

Wednesday - Swam 1 hour

Glad I swam this morning, but it was hard.  My legs felt so tight especially when we did the 100 kick.  The other girls were feeling it too.  We did some speed drills and those are pretty tough.  I was glad I got up and went.  My moods have been pretty even and I've not been dealing with any anxiety or depressed feelings.  Derek & Kara have both been having meltdowns again and we're dealing with some behavior issues.  It's get really frustrating at times and tries my patience.  Rob and I thought of some ideas on how to handle it.  You have to be so creative with discipline--there is no one size fits all.

Thursday - Group Power

Made it to Power.  I hate it how you miss a few weeks and you feel like you're back to square one.  Chest muscles kill.  Ab muscles hurt.  Well at least I worked them.  No push ups so it actually felt more doable.  But some tough lunges and chest presses--I can feel it.

Friday - Stationary Bike 35 minutes

So tired.  I can't believe how tired I was Thursday night.  I didn't want to go to Ride, but I didn't want to sleep to the alarm either.  Friday are very busy days when I have all the child care kids.  It goes so much better when I get some alone time in the morning...even if it's a little bit.  I allowed myself to lay in bed until 5:30.  Then I was able to get a shorter workout and still be back home right before Abby was dropped off.  It was snowing as I left, but a small dusting.  We had no idea it was going to start coming down crazy around 9 AM.  I slid bringing Judah back to school.  School closed at 1 and Rob went to pick up Hailey and drop off Anna.  Daphne's mom had a very difficult time getting home from work and she ended up staying close to 6 PM--about 2 1/2 hours later than normal.  Felt so bad for her mom...probably driving a rear wheel drive van with little experience driving in these conditions.

Saturday - Rest

Originally I was going to get up and go running before I had to be at the bazaar.  But with the snow everywhere that was not going to happen.  I don't mind running in cold or snow, but it's not safe here.  They don't plow roads or sidewalks--you basically slip and slide.  I also woke up with a pounding sinus headache.  I had a dry cough during the night...not as bad as earlier in November...but still not great.  I took Muccinex and Sudafed non drowsy and I felt better by 10 AM.  I went out to the other bazaar in Dallas with no problems.  All the mains road were completely clear as well as all of downtown.  What a crazy weekend!  We have record low temps tonight.  We hardly get below 30, but we're going to be in the teens tonight.

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

11/25 - 12/1

Monday - Rest

Tuesday - Rest

Had not planned on taking this day off.  Not motivated.

Wednesday - Ran 2 miles

I am running Turkey Trot on Thanksgiving so I did a short easy 2 mile road in preparation for tomorrow and to figure out what to wear.  Weather tomorrow is supposed to be the same as today...and then rains this weekend.

Thursday - Turkey Trot 5k  24:08 - PR!!

The weather was perfect for the race.  It was pretty cool out in the morning, but manageable.  I wore a long sleeve t-shirt, running tights, knit hat, and gloves and I was fine.  I started out trying to keep up with these fast people near the front, but they took off.  I was able to maintain my pace.  Only two or three women passed me.  By Mile #2 I was starting to feel that nausea feeling I got when I ran Hope for Health.  I didn't have to stop and throw up, but I was pushing myself extremely hard.  I had to back down a little bit and then I felt better.  I was very thrilled to see I beat my personal record by 5 seconds and I placed second in my age category.  Because the race company was having computer glitches, they couldn't figure out the winners.  I didn't know I placed second until a couple hours later on the race website.  I thought I placed and waited forever, but they never fixed it.  So they gave our pies away to random people.  We were told we would get an e-mail with a free pie coupon, but I haven't received it yet.  Oh well.  Nothing I can do about it.

Friday & Saturday

The last couple days we've been enjoying some fabulous much needed family time.  It's been so wonderful.  Rob & I have also been staying up past midnight and sleeping in...and not eating terrible...but not eating great.  I know it's not going to last.  I plan on running Monday morning.

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

11/17 - 11/24

Monday - Rest

Had planned on starting up again, but very overwhelmed.  Not sick anymore thankfully.  But it's an overly busy insane week.  So much going on.  I am feeling a little discouraged too.  Trying to move on.

Tuesday - Ran 3 miles

My dear wonderful friend took Kara all morning even though she had her own stuff going on.  She knew I needed a break.  Love her.  I went running around 9 AM and the rain just beginning to stop.  It was wet and rainy, but not pouring.  It was hard to run.  I haven't worked out in ten days.  I didn't have to stop at all.  I just felt like I was going super slow.  I know I can get back into again.  I am still planning on doing Turkey Trot next week.

Wednesday - Swim 1 hour

It's a week later as I am writing this.  Last week was totally insane in so many ways.  As I had a conversation with someone, God strengthens and molds our character through difficult times.  I totally saw evidence on that last week.  Swimming was really good last week.  Kristin was back and had a bike injury.  We were able to share a lane as she can't do some of the other strokes yet...she's still faster than me on freestyle.  The triathlon club is now posting workouts on the facebook page and advertising the Wednesday morning swim times so I imagine the pool will get busier again.

Thursday - Power

So great to be back at Power, but hate being inconsistent with it.  I can't increase my weight and everything hurts afterwards.  It wasn't too bad this time around.

Friday - Rest

I had planned on going to Ride, but I had a very stressful day ahead (that turned out to be even more stressful than originally planned) and I chose to sleep until 6:30 AM.

Saturday - Ran 5 miles

Beautiful run in the cool late fall air and no rain!  We are currently on a long spell of clear skies and crisp cool air--perfect for running.  It won't last forever so I feel like I need to soak it up while I can.  I really enjoyed this run.  I haven't done a longer run in a few weeks so it was hard at points.  It helped clear my mind.

Sunday - Ran approx. 5.5 miles

Derek had a birthday party at Super Bounce so I thought I would try running the pedestrian path along Salem Parkway.  We have so few good running/bike paths here.  I had never done this one before because it's all the way out in Keizer.  It was great to run on a quiet trail.  I think I will takes the kids to it in the spring to bike.  It's pretty flat as well with a small incline in some places.  Good run overall and again perfect weather!

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

11/11 - 11/17

Monday & Tuesday - Rest, rest, rest.

Monday was a very difficult day.  I was so looking forward to Veteran's Day and having all three kids home.  But Derek & Kara are still struggling with conflict management.  When Derek is not feeling well and tired, he is absolutely crazy.  The whole day wasn't terrible.  When I took them out, it got so bad I almost had a panic attack in JP Penny.  It was that bad.  My cold got progressively worse as the day went on.  Last night I felt overly fatigued, stuffy nose etc.  On Tuesday I woke up still feeling bad.  As the morning went on, it has gotten worse.  I have no appetite.  I have chills.  I just want to sleep.  I had to cancel my child care job this afternoon.  Thankfully it's just Anna and she can stay at after care at school.  But I still feel bad.  I hate cancelling.  I never had to do it last year with Annabelle.  Now after being home less than five minutes Kara picked another bad fight with Derek and I am ready to lose it.  I NEED to get better and get over this cold.  Lots of rest today.  I can do it.

Rest of the week - I took the rest of the week off.  I was still fighting a bad cold and then I was dealing with some crummy anxiety.

Monday, November 4, 2013

11/4 - 11/11

Monday - Ran 5 miles

I had planned on going to the Track Workout.  It was lighter this morning.  I really just wanted to run alone.  I wanted to be alone in my own thoughts and not run laps.  I got out the door at 5:45 and had plenty of time when I got home to shower and be ready before Judah got here.  It was a great run.  Cool morning air.  No rain yet.  It's supposed to rain later in the morning and pretty much the rest of the day.  Feeling better today.

Tuesday - Rest Day

Now almost positive the mood swings from last weekend were 90% related to PMS.  Because my energy level and moods are better.

Wednesday - Swam 1 hour 5 minutes

I was a minute or two late (although I think Tracey & Erica were early) so I didn't get a lane by them.  I was by myself on the far end.  I did their workout.  Usually I modify it so I'm at the same place as them.  This time I didn't modify it.  So I didn't do the whole thing, but I did do quite a bit.  It felt great to get in the water.  The pool was busier and I like it when there a bunch of people.

Thursday - Group Power - 1 hour

Today is the only day this week I can go to Power so I felt like I was dragging myself there.  Once we got started, I was glad I was there.  It was almost the same workout as last Saturday.  I cannot believe how much the core workout at the end hurt--it was hard.  I think I would benefit from doing more core workouts.  The kids have been doing great this week and so have I.  It is such an insanely busy week, but next week we have very little going on.  It will be a nice break.

Friday - Sunday

On Friday I went roller skating with the middle school girls.  Which actually was a blast and brought back memories of junior high skating parties.  Surprisingly it was a workout!  We had an all night party which was really fun.  It only made cold symptoms worse.  Saturday I got through the morning OK (Rob had to work until 2) and took a long nap in the afternoon.  I was so tired I went to bed at 8:30 PM.  Yesterday my cold was bad again and I took a half hour nap in the afternoon.  I decided I would take Monday off from exercise as well so I could sleep in one more day, get caught up on sleep, and allow my cold to get better.  It is getting better and I am grateful for a day off.

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

10/28 - 11/3

Monday - Rest

Tuesday - Ran 3 miles

I decided to take a vacation from exercise.  I just really needed a break from it.  I was starting to get obsessed with it and pushing myself too hard.  I didn't even go into the exercise center while we in St. Maarten and I was totally OK with that.  I took a break from exercise and technology and it was wonderful.  With that being said, it is somewhat of transition coming home.  The first couple days it was fatigue.  We were going to bed between 8:30 and 9.  Even taking naps during the day when we could.  Then I just felt like I was in this black cloud--irritable and moody.  I have tried to control it around the kids and have done fairly well--better than normal.  I had fun at the Harvest Carnival, but part of me felt like I was going through the motions.  I had a hard time at church on Sunday--I just didn't want to talk to anyone.  On Sundays like this I actually do a lot better at the evening service when there are less people and it's more relaxed.  Another reason to keep going to evening church, I guess. :)  Yesterday morning I woke up again still feeling enveloped in this black cloud.  As I started to clean, make to-do lists, and do activities with the kids--I actually felt a lot better.  I still don't feel 100% mentally, but I think I'll get there soon.  I am looking forward to going to Christina's house later this morning because I always feel better after hanging out with her.

I managed to get myself out of bed and run today.  I think I have this mindset running after 2 weeks off--it's going to be so hard and painful.  It really wasn't at all.  Despite it being SO incredibly dark out in the mornings now and it's been colder in the high 30's/low 40's--it was a great run.  I could have run longer if I had to.  I don't what or if I am training for anything right now.  I got invited to do Shamrock again.  I'd like to do a Turkey Trot possibly once we figure out what we're doing on Thanksgiving.  But not sure if I am going to do any major runs this winter.

Wednesday - Swam 1 hour

It was so great to swim today.  Erica was back and Tracey was there.  It was a hard workout, but I was glad I pushed myself.  I would not have worked out as hard had I been alone.  I think my strokes are getting stronger.  I really enjoyed.

I feel like I can record this here versus my other blog.  Too many people read that one and they don't need all the inside scoop on my moods and my personal life.  :)  It does help to go back and track my moods versus the time of year, circumstances etc.  Today was a pretty challenging today.  Some was totally out of my control--the kids had bad days.  I also was juggling a lot with youth group tonight.  As much as I love youth ministry, I just don't feel the passion as much this year.  I don't know if that's because I am coming off vacation or I can't devote as much time to it.  I don't know.  I don't feel as anxious about it like I have in previous years, but I don't feel as excited.  Kara is also struggling and I was able to put my finger on it.  She misses Derek when he's at school, but she still struggles a lot when he comes home. It's beyond the adjustment of a new school year (it's been two months now since school started and we finished the first quarter).  She feels threatened when Derek plays with the child care kids (they are way more his friends than hers) and intentionally picks fights and just can't get along with him.  The other day she was up from her nap and picked a fight with him within a minute of getting up.  She often fights with him about five minutes after he's home--it's like clockwork.  I need to do something different with her.  Rob suggested getting her to help me with things when the big kids come home from school or choose an activity she can do.  Just reassure her.  Regardless she needs to be supervised outside with the other kids.  The weather has been so nice they play outside after coming home from school.  She often wants to join them.  She doesn't play well with them and she's often screaming at Derek within five minutes.  I really saw it affecting Anna this week--she's been quieter and mellow--and somewhat annoyed by the drama.  Something really has to change because I can't keep dealing with their fights all afternoon.  They're not like normal conflicts they have like when Hailey comes home--deciding on a TV show or not helping with the cleaning or even being bossy.  They are insecure intentionally picking a fight to piss the one other off conflicts.  And they really need to stop.  She's beginning to thrive off negative attention and it's not healthy. I would rather deal with the other kind of conflicts--much easier to manage.

Thursday - Rest

Much better day with all the kids!!

Friday - Group Ride

I got up early and went to Ride.  It was nice to be back on the stationary bike in the class setting--it has been awhile.  Erica who I swim with was there too but I didn't realize until we were in the locker room.  She was sitting in the front and I was in the back.  Angie was also in the locker room coming from the pool and started training again after a six week break.  She is a mom to young kids too and competitive triathlete.  She was voted female triathlete of the year in our club.  Rob says I have a female crush on her.  I said I just look up to her and what she's been able to accomplish.  It's just a joke with that old Seinfeld episode where George idolizes Elaine's rock climbing boyfriend.

It was a super long day.  I had kids from 7 AM until 4:30 PM, ran to Wal Mart, decorated our trunk, helped Hailey carve a pumpkin and then was at the school harvest party until 8:30.  I was so drained and tired by the end of the day.  I think I am dealing with some mild depression because my moods are all over the map and I feel more emotional than normal.  Not quite sure what is going on.  I think it's helpful to track it here because I can't always remember the day to day.  I did start taking Vitamin C supplements and I have been taking Zinc when I get cold like symptoms.  I feel like I'm taking a ridiculously amount of vitamins, but I have not had any major cold yet.  Typically by October I've had at least one bad cold.  With all the kids in the house and both the baby and toddler have had bad colds already, I've avoided it.

Saturday - Group Power

Today is the first Saturday in I don't know how many that I can actually go to Power.  It hurt as usual when you don't go in several weeks.  I would like to do Power once a week but it gets tricky because our weekends in the fall are so busy.  I can't always do Thursday early morning.  It's so tough to go when I have youth group the night before.  It was great to be there and stretch some of those muscles again I've avoided the last couple weeks.  I still don't feel the greatest mentally again today, but I honestly don't think it's going to be a long term thing this time.  I really think I need 2 weeks post vacation to feel normal.  This summer it totally helped coming home from Michigan and having Rob home all week.  The kids were in VBS/camp all morning so we had every single morning totally free.  It was a relaxing week and even the weeks that followed were very low key with little going on.  It's not that way this time.  We jumped right into Halloween activities and we were way more sleep deprived.  And Derek & Kara are just going through a big adjustment period and it's more Kara than Derek.  After Rob and I talked, that's what we think it is.  I am going to keep continue to monitor my mental health to see if I do need to call Dr. V and change doses or meds.

Sunday - 4 mile run

Really good run in the afternoon. 50 degrees. No rain.  Perfect.  It was a good day.  First day I feel more than halfway normal and the kids did great today too.  Derek & Kara fought very little if at all.  Ready for a new week.

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Short Break

I had planned on taking Sunday off after the Mud Run.  I was so incredibly tired after church.  I think I slept well over an hour on the couch.  The bee stung my right ankle.  It was itchy and a little sore, but it didn't hurt that bad.  It hurt more as the day went on.

On Monday I woke up and it was more swollen and hurt really bad.  I was limping. I could probably run, but why put myself in more pain than what I already am?  I called the doctor just to make sure I was using the right cream and taking the right medication.  Plus we leave for St. Maarten on Wednesday.  If I needed an antibiotic ointment or anything, I wanted it now.  Dr. V's office said just to ice it and take Claritin or Benadryl.

I felt OK after the pumpkin patch, but I was walking around almost the whole morning.  I probably sat for a half hour at the most.  It was getting really painful.  Rob looked at it and touched the punctured area and I about cried.  I was stung at least twice...possibly three times.  I iced it while the kids played on the church playground.  That helped.  It was still pretty swollen.  I took a Tylenol for pain and that helped significantly.  I also took a Claritin.

Right now it's not as painful.  I have been walking normally.  It just itches like crazy.  The swelling has gone down considerably.  I will be fine.

What I learned about Benadryl is that it makes me very loopy and woozy.  I also learned it doesn't help me sleep--it does the exact opposite.  The last two nights I have taken it, I've had restless broken sleep. Normally I sleep very well, but not the last two nights.  I don't feel rested. I had a hard time getting up this morning.  Ugh I don't like Benadryl anymore.

Tomorrow we leave for St. Maarten.  I will probably work out in the exercise center a few times, but I'm not following any kind of training plan until we're back.

Sunday, October 6, 2013

October 7 - October 13

Rob & I were trying to figure out this weekend how we can make our schedule that work that I can get morning exercise in, go to bed at a decent hour, he can get his doctorate work done, and we can still spend time together in the evening.  It's not easy!!  Normally I wouldn't want to be in by 10, but most mornings I have to be up and ready to go by 7 AM. I am naturally a night owl. But if I can't exercise during his lunch or most evenings (some evenings I can but not many) it has to be mornings.  I am getting used to it.

So we're going to try and put the kids to bed between 7:30 and 8, spend time together until 9.  Rob will work from 9-10.  I can still be in bed at a decent hour.  Each week is different because some things are every other (like teaching preschool, Family Night at church), some things are once a month, and others are just random.  So I'm going to try to set a goal each week, but I'm not going to beat myself up if I can't match it.

Goal for this week:  Monday: Track Workout Tuesday:  Rest  Wednesday:  Swim  Thursday:  Group Power  Friday:  Short Run Outside  Saturday:  Mud Run  Sunday:  Rest or bike (depending on weather)

Monday: Track Workout - approximately 6 miles

I did make it to the track workout.  There were eight of us there.  I went my own pace and didn't care that I was running alone a good part of the time.  No one else seemed to care either.  :) I did the same workout they did and I was about 800 meters behind. They were really nice.  The workout was lighter compared to other weeks.  That was fine with me.  I have had a sinus headache off and on since yesterday that has not responded to Tylenol. I also had ear pressure most of last night that thankfully did not interfere with my sleep. I took Muccinex this afternoon and that took the edge off. Now it's been gone for a few hours.  Hope it doesn't come back.  I also have had anxiety related to hormones which thankfully is also subsiding now.  I feel like I can finally breathe again.  I am so glad I got up early and ran this morning and got some outside air.  I think today would have been ten times worse if I slept in.

Tuesday:  Rest

Wednesday:  Swam 1 hour

It was just Tracey and I again.  We did a workout similar to last week.  It was really good to get in the pool.  I felt great afterwards and like I pushed myself.

Thursday:  Stationary Bike 37 minutes

I decided I am going to stick with just two early mornings for now.  I may increase it to 3, but right now two is about what I can handle.  I skipped Power and went to the gym at 6 AM versus 5 AM and rode the stationary bike.  Good workout.  Not my favorite workout, but glad I went to the gym and worked out.

Friday - Rest

I did take Judah on a stroller walk, but we probably only walked about 1 1/2 miles.  I was not walking very fast.  :)

Saturday - Detroit Mud Run 1:12.34

I got to Karen's house around 7:30.  We stopped in Stayton and picked up her friend Cindy.  We got into Detroit at 8:45.  It was nice to be able to get our bibs, stretch, and talk for a few minutes before starting.  I have a habit of getting to races way too early and end up sitting around forever.  I was going to run with Karen and Cindy the first few miles, but I do have a faster pace.  Once we got going, I really wanted to just go.  They had planned on me doing that.  The first part of the run was along the road and easy trail.  Then we were in marshy grass with mud here and there.  Then we were on rocks (my least favorite).  Once we got over the rocks it was thick squishy mud.  I have to admit--it was pretty fun.  I loved all the natural obstacles.  There was one point where we had to cross a creek.  It was hard to jump because the mud was very thick.  Some of the people stepped in the water and didn't realize the depth.  They were up to their waist in mud/water.  I followed these girls who knew what they were doing.  I managed to avoid getting that wet.

Once we crossed to the island, we climbed up this slope and we were in the woods.  I was running by this guy and he asked me if I was doing OK.  I said I felt like something bit me or stung me.  At first I thought it was little pieces of rock scraping my ankle.  Then I felt the sting through my ankle and it was starting to burn. He said something probably bit me.  Then I looked down at my sock and saw a dead bee stuck to it.  It didn't feel too bad so I kept on going.  Once I got to the aid station, the girl running next to me said she got stung on the leg.  I stopped and looked at my ankle and pulled the stinger out.  She looked at my ankle to make sure I got it.  She told the guys at the aid station lots of people were getting stung.  He said he felt bad, but he wasn't sure if he could do anything about it.  Cindy got stung too more than once, but Karen managed to avoid the bees.  They think someone disturbed a bee's nest and it caused them to swarm.

I managed to run fine despite the fact my ankle was burning.  It went in and out.  It didn't hurt enough to quit running.  We went through more mud before we had to cross some creeks and rocks.  The last bit on the run was trail which lead to the road coming into Detroit.  I finished at 1:12.  Karen and Cindy came in about ten minutes later.

The post race food was amazing!  Great harvest bread with peanut butter, homemade soups, beer, cornbread.  It tasted SO good.

The temperature was perfect--high 50's/low 60's.  Only a little sprinkle or rain.  The scenery with the mountains and fall colors was amazing.  I wish I would have had my camera, but had fears of dropping it in the mud.  My biggest fear was my shoes coming off and being suction cupped in the mud.  This happened to some kids, but I was pretty careful to not let it happen.

After I finished I went to the medic to get something for the bee sting pain.  He said LOTS of people got stung.  He had to follow protocol and take my blood pressure and ask if I needed to go the hospital which I of course didn't.  He gave me two big Benadryl pills.  I should have just asked for one or really skipped it all together.  I didn't have much of an allergic reaction.  I am pretty sure I am not allergic at all to bees or I would have known it.  I just remember when Kara got stung this summer, Cheryl had some type of medicine that really helped.  On the car ride I started to feel loopy.  I was trying to follow the conversation, but I really wanted to shut my eyes.  I probably would have fallen asleep.

I knew I could safely drive home.  It wasn't that long of a drive.  If I would have to drive like a half hour or more, I would have been more concerned.  I told Rob I was in a Benadryl stupor and I needed to sleep.  I slept for like 40 minutes.  Then he had to go into the office.  I tried to get up, but I think laid there for another hour.  Derek & Kara were both napping and Hailey was playing upstairs.  I still felt loopy after I got up and I was getting a sinus head ache.  Once I walked around and started cleaning I felt better.  I did have this loopy edge the rest of the day.  I took Advil for the sinus head ache and that went away.

I'm so glad I did it!  I would LOVE to do another trail run. I like the natural obstacles and I don't mind getting a little dirty.  I got 4th place in my age category and 117th out of 261.  Not bad!!

Thursday, October 3, 2013

October 1 - 7

Monday - Rest

Tuesday - Ran 5 miles

Kara had co-op preschool and I took the advantage of the 2 hours I get to myself twice a month and went running.  I love running the mid morning and there are few times I get to do this.  With our weekend schedule lately, it's been hard to.  I did my normal 5 mile route.  I got rained on at times, but nothing major.

Wednesday - Swam 1 hour 5 minutes

Tracey was the only triathlete there.  We were also practically the only ones in the pool.  A lot of the hard core triathletes take the month of October off because it's the end of the season.  She brought along a workout that we followed.  I had to modify it a bit because she is of course faster than I am.  It was nice to have company...we both agreed it's better than being there alone.  I felt more confident swimming as well.

Thursday - Ran 3 miles

I am only doing two early mornings a week and that might mean not going to Power as often which stinks.  I can't do everything.  I did have a great run this morning.  It's going to be a sunny day which I feel like I need.  It's still very strange but I just really miss summer.  I think's because we've had so few sunny days in September...very few.  And lots and lots of rain.  There really was no transition...one extreme to the next.  Although my anxiety is minimal, I think it does affect my moods at times.  I am trying to get outside even if it is raining.  On Monday I bundled Judah up and put him in the stroller with a roof over him and put Kara in her raincoat.  We went for a short walk in the rain.  Although we were wet and muddy, (Judah stayed the driest) I really needed it.

Friday - Rest

Saturday - Ran 45 minutes

I had an awesome run on the beach in Lincoln City!!  We were staying about a half mile from beach for the marriage retreat and our first session did not start until 10 AM.  So I had plenty of time to go for a run.  It was amazing.  I LOVE the coast.

Sunday - Outside biking 45 minutes

My first bike ride ever outside of the church parking lot and Wendy Kroger Park in clips!!  It was scary at some points...especially crossing Kuebler.  I thought I was going to fall at one point.  I did it and was pretty proud of myself.

Monday, September 23, 2013

September 24 - 30

Monday - Rest

I was still fatigued last night and very sore so I decided to rest again today.  Will pick it back up tomorrow rain (which is in the forecast) or shine.

Tuesday - Ran 3 miles

I ran my regular 3 mile route in the pouring rain.  Not liking this September weather wise at all.  But we were so spoiled last fall with zero rain the month of September and most of October so I knew we couldn't luck out two years in a row.  Supposed to be nice Thursday & Friday and we are taking advantage of that.

This blog is also very helpful for me in tracking my moods.  I actually have gone back through and read previous posts before I went on Welbutrin and took Vitamin D supplements.  I see my moods have stabilized significantly.

I am still an overly emotional person and my highs are high and my lows low, but it's more under control.  However, last night at 10 PM I felt overly exhausted.  I didn't want to swim in the morning.  I mean I wanted to...I knew I would feel better if I did.  The thought of getting up so early and swimming for a whole hour...it seemed overwhelming.  This turned into a "I'm doing too much" conversation and "I need to scale back."  I absolutely hate that conversation.  Because running, swimming, biking is me.  It's what I do.  It drives me.  It boosts mood.  It brings adult conversation.  Some people craft.  Others shop. I exercise. The idea of scaling back frankly ticks me off.  I am too sensitive to it.  I act a little OCD with exercise.  Like I get overly frustrated with myself when I don't work out in the morning and miss days on end.  I can't always accept it.

The truth is mornings are it.  On Monday, Wednesday, and Friday I have to be up, showered, dressed, hair done, family room clean, kitchen somewhat clean by 7:15 AM.  Tuesdays & Thursdays are a little more flexible. I can workout until 7:30 AM and can shower anytime before 11 AM.  I can't work out over Rob's lunch anymore any days.  I can't go to the gym in the evenings on Mondays or Tuesdays (I have a discount membership that doesn't allow me to use the club those days and I pay significantly less--otherwise not sure we could even afford it).  Every other Wednesday night I have middle school youth group.  My co-leader is just as busy as I am--full time teacher and practically full time grad student and now serving on Council...I can't really ask him to do more than what he's doing.  Thursday nights I have Bible Study.  Fridays nights vary.  Since mid August one of us or both of us or all of us have plans with the exception of last weekend.   Lately our Saturdays have been busy.  I can't remember the last time I went to the gym on a Saturday morning...hasn't been since at least August.  I knew September would stink schedule wise so I was somewhat prepared for it.  Even though I am a little less conservative in my Sunday observance, I don't go to the gym on Sundays.  I know many who do, but I don't.  Honestly it's not a good habit for me as Rob is often very tired and needs downtime Sunday afternoons.  I really don't like having him to juggle everything.  I have run a couple Sunday mornings before church and I like that.  So what this all means is that it mostly has to be mornings.  I am more tired at night because I am watching kids all day and loving it...but working very hard.

This whole thing has been an adjustment for me and figuring things out.  Saturdays take on a whole meaning because I don't work and I have caught up on cleaning on the weekends.  I get extra time with my own kids.  I hate not being able to exercise as often as I want.  I don't know if I need to scale back to four times a week and call it good or try to push myself in the mornings.  I did drop a couple things this fall (morning Bible Study, MOPS leadership, Book Club) to make room for work secretly hoping I didn't have to cut exercise.

It might not mean cutting exercise.  It might mean getting creative with the schedule.  I can run the days I don't teach co-op preschool. That's every other Tuesday morning and I get a little over two hours to myself.  Last year I sat in Starbucks and read a book.  I can workout every other Wednesday evening and even after Bible Study on Thursdays.  So I am going to play around with the schedule and see how this is all going to pan out.

Wednesday - Swam 45 minutes

I went to the pool at night and it was actually refreshing to swim at night versus the early morning.  Due to swim team practices I couldn't get in the pool until 8 PM.  I did the warm up I usually do with the triathletes and then did some drills and some 100's.  I even practiced flip turns and was able to do a few sloppy ones.  It was great to get in the pool.

Thursday - Rest

Very busy day.  Couldn't get exercise in.

Friday - Rest

Even busier than Thursday!  Thought about going to the gym after Hailey's birthday party, but I was spent by 8:30 PM and opted to stay home.

Saturday - Stationary Bike - 40 minutes

I did the interval track.  I wanted to run outside.  We have had one of the most rainiest Septembers on record.  It has been windy too and we've almost broken records for wettest September. It's so much like December/January weather. It is a tad bit depressing.  The last two weekends we've been stuck inside.  It's hard to believe at this time last year we were camping at the coast in the beautiful sunny warm weather.  It is supposed to stay like this until later next week.  I opted for the gym this morning versus braving the wind and rain.

Sunday - Ran 5 miles on treadmill

I don't normally go to the gym on Sundays and I try not to make a habit of it.  We're having pouring non-stop rain, high winds, trees falling over, and flooding.  OK that's a little exaggerated...but it is bad.  They almost cancelled church tonight.  We're breaking records for September rainfall.  When we were in Woodburn last night for pizza, the driveway was flooding.  So I ran inside.  As much as I don't like the treadmill, it was OK.  I did an average of 9 1/2 minute miles.

I decided I want to focus on running and try to get in 2-3 good runs a week and then try to swim, bike, and do Power at least once a week (but it could be two of those once a week).  It really depends on the week.  This week is more manageable than last week but we're at the coast all next weekend.

Monday, September 16, 2013

September 16 - 23

Monday - Track Workout - about 9 miles total

I finally went back to the track workouts!  Some of the people remembered me.  A little embarrassing I have not been there since May.  There were only about five of us and two left early. No other females.  I did almost the whole workout minus a mile.  It was really good.  I didn't try to keep up with the others.  I just did my own paces. I liked that better than trying to keep up with them and starting the next phase of the workout when they do.  It was nice to be outside in the morning and see the sun rise.  So glad I went!

Tuesday - Ran 3 miles

I got a late start and didn't get out until 6:45.  It was a good run except I was sore from the track workout.

Wednesday - Swam 55 minutes

The pool was a ghost town.  None of the triathletes were there.  At first I was a little relieved because I could do my own workout and swim at my own pace.  Then I realized how I get bored with swimming when I am alone and I missed the interaction with the others I swim with.  I keep a workout in my swim bag in case I am alone.  So I followed it pretty closely today.  It was a good workout and I really focused on my form.  I did 25 yard intervals as well and worked on speed.

Thursday - Rest

Didn't work out today.  Not the greatest day.  :(  Kids and child care kids were great.  A little stressed about youth group and feeling a bit overwhelmed.  This too shall pass.

Friday - Group Power

I could not get up early to the gym.  I didn't fall asleep until after midnight hence why yesterday was a bad day.  I had a great day with the kids and the child care kids.  I was able to go to 5 PM Power after the last child was picked up.  It was a whole different world from 5:15 AM Group Power.  She worked us HARD and I can feel it already in my shoulders and core.  I really needed it and was glad to push myself.  Weather is supposed to be awful this weekend.  Hailey & I were supposed to run a 5K tomorrow for the free clinic our church supports.  I will be running solo because I don't want Hailey to run in the pouring rain.  Neither does she.  She's not used to it and I don't want it to mess with her body temperature. again.

Saturday - Run for Hope & Health 5K Time 25:20 (?) Placed 2nd in my age category, 3rd overall womens, 14th overall

The weather looked nice this morning and I questioned whether Hailey could run it.  I decided not chance it.  It actually stayed nice until the 10kers took us.  Then it literally poured and I was dripping.  She would have been miserable.  A little kid next to me was shivering.  We took us about 15 minutes after the 10kers.  I got a really good start.  I was near the front of the pack.  Then my stupid shoelace came undone--I love my shoes...hate the shoelaces.  I had to stop and retie it the first half mile which took much longer than I hoped.  I took us and passed a bunch of people, but it think I might have PRed had I not had to stop.  :(  I pushed myself really hard.  These ladies were trying to gain on me after I passed them and I just moving and got away from them.  I was pretty strong at the end.  I crossed the finish line and I had to duck behind a tree and throw up a little bit.  Never in all my years running has this ever happened!  I ate a Cliff bar this morning and I just don't think my body was used to it.  I ate one while climbing Mount Saint Helens and that's the only other time.  Once I walked around and ate something I totally felt fine.  I was not going to stick around for the raffle because my chances of winning were slim, but I was excited I won 3rd overall women.  The race was at Minto Brown and I loved racing there!  Racing along the river and along the paths was so nice. The rain died down halfway through the race.

I did register for the Detroit Mud Run so I am excited to do another race in a couple months.  This is not timed and it's a 10K and it's really muddy.  It's put on by Run Wild who do all the trail runs in the area.  I am going to do it with Karen and her friend.

I would love to do Turkey Trot with Hailey in November, but a lot depends on the weather.

Sunday - Rest!

I was going to do a bike ride in the afternoon, but only if the weather cooperated.  The weather has been absolutely horrible...blustery rain.  Normally September is beautiful here, but it's been ugly and feels more like January.


Tuesday, September 10, 2013

September 9 - 15

Monday - Ran 3 miles

I was going to start going to the triathlon track workouts on Monday mornings since the little boy I watch gets dropped off at 7:15 AM.  I really need to have exercised and showered by then and I could easily do that with the early morning track runs.  Plus it's really dark in the mornings...like still dark at 6:30 AM.  It's much safer to run around the track with strong fast buff triathletes than by myself in our neighborhood with the scary homeless people in the park and who knows what else.  Really our neighborhood is pretty safe and there are runners and bikers everywhere and even high schoolers walking to school at 6:30 for early morning band practice and people getting on the city busses for work--but I feel less safe when it's dark.  I chickened out.  I made every excuse why I didn't want to go and bought into all of them.  :(  Going to try again next week.

My run was harder than Sunday for some reason.  My legs just feel tight and crampy again and for some reason my right shoulder (which is not my bad shoulder) is aching.  I think that might be from carrying the little guy I watch because I have not carried toddlers in awhile.  I don't ever carry Kara anymore except sometimes during church so she can see during the singing.

I did run again with all three kids at Riverfront Park.  We probably ran about 1 mile and a half again and I didn't have Kara in her car so I pretty much had to walk with her the whole time.  Hailey did great again.  We were a little pressed for time so I think we're going to try get out earlier next time.  The kids want to run the paths again on Wednesday, but I will probably take Kara's car and Derek's bike.

Tuesday - Rest

Ok so this week is not starting out like I hoped.  Had a really busy night last night and didn't fall asleep until after midnight and slept terrible.  It has been so hot at night--not used to high 60 - 70 degree temps for sleeping.  The house absorbs the heat all day so it's so hot at night.  I was sweating as I working on my article last night at the computer and the temp in the house read 80.  I really just don't feel like we need the air conditioning on...I hate A/C air and would rather have natural air.  There is no other time today I can run and my bike still needs to be fixed.  Feeling a little frustrated but I'll live.

Wednesday - Rest

Yesterday was a tough day.  Derek & Kara were both really struggling and could not get along and it kept getting ugly and emotional.  I was able to keep it together, but my anxiety level starting rising mid afternoon.  By evening I took the kids to swimming and I felt a lot better.  I had to go to a fellowship thing and I was the first to leave which is unheard of.  I am usually the last.  But I was tired...and just overwhelmed and wanted to be home.  I decided to not try and swim today.  My swimming partners were not going to be there anyway.  Needless to say, today was like ten times better and Derek & Kara only had one squabble.  Everything just went so much smoother regardless and I don't have much anxiety anymore either.  It's going to be a lighter week exercise wise.  Rob is gone all weekend doing a wedding anyway.  Just the way it goes.

Thursday - Group Power

It's Monday as I am writing this.  I did go to Power and it was great.  Can't remember any significant details.

Friday - Sunday

Rob was in Lynden all weekend doing a wedding and it was nearly impossible for me to get away and work out.

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

September 2 - 8

Monday - Rest

I did not exercise today.  We had cleaning projects to get done and I wanted to sleep in as much as I was able.  We were gone a good part of the day.

Tuesday - Ran 3 miles

Got out the door by 6:20 AM.  Kind of depressing it's still dark out at 6 now.  :(  It was a really good run though.  And a great day to start the first day of school and first day of having child care kids here.  First day was awesome!  Managed to stay disciplined and had a great time with the kids.

Wednesday - Swam 50 minutes

I set the alarm for the wrong time but managed to get up on my own but fifteen minutes later.  I almost decided to ditch swimming and go to Group Ride which I would be right on time for.  I didn't lay out shoes (only flip flops for the pool) and I didn't want to wake up Rob as I searched for them in the dark.  Plus I really wanted to swim and stay committed to going Wednesday mornings.  I've been pretty consistent since we came home from vacation.  They had already started when I got there and I felt like a dork because there was not an open lane.  Thankfully this Mike guy who comes once in awhile moved over to share with another guy and I got his lane.  The workout was similar to last week--it almost felt like the same workout.  It just felt really nice being in the pool--it was like the right temperature.  I think my stroke is still off at points, but I am really working at it.  I think lessons whenever I can take them again will help.

Thursday - Group Power 1 hour

I increased my weight on pretty much every track but biceps and I loved the challenge.  I felt more motivated and engaged in the workouts.  I did almost all the push ups on my toes.  Good workout!

Friday - Group Ride - 1 hour

I had not to been to Ride in quite awhile.  It was great to be here and the workout was intense...but good.  I might have to be a regular now Friday mornings because my first child care kid gets dropped off at 7 AM on Fridays.

Saturday - Ran 1 1/2 miles

I spent a good part of the day shopping with some friends.  When I got home I had to take Hailey running.  Derek wanted to go too.  Both kids ran 0.6 miles straight without stopping.  We ran to their school and back and only took two short walk breaks.  I was so proud of them both.  I pushed Kara in her pink car.

Sunday - Ran 4.5 miles

I got out before church and ran the Sumpter route.  Really good run--felt great.  The weather was perfect.

Monday, August 26, 2013

August 26 - September 1

Monday - Rest

Going to rest one more day.  I slept terrible Saturday night after climbing.  My sunburn on my neck and face kept me awake plus muscle cramps in my thighs.  I actually slept better the night before in the tent.  Rob slept better at home.  Sunday night I slept a little bit better but thighs still ached and glutes. I will rest one more day and run tomorrow morning.  I am eager to get my muscles going again--it helps. I am still pretty tired and sore.

Tuesday - Ran 3 miles

Yesterday I was very sore and fatigued.  I had zero energy.  I was able to take a nap and that helped a little.  But still just frustrated with how tired I was and how I felt I could hardly do anything.  The kids were really getting to me because they just get so bored and fight.  We need school and a routine.

This morning it was very hard to get up, but I got out the door at 6:45.  I ran three miles on my regular route.  My thighs are still very sore and tight.  Running helped loosen them up.  I probably ran a little slower than normal, but it was not painful.  It felt great to get moving again.

Wednesday - Swimming 1 hour

I swam with the triathletes.  It was tougher this morning.  I felt like I was going extra slow.  It was good to get out and be consistent with my Wednesday swims though.  One of the competitive triathletes was there (she originally was the one who invited me to Wednesday swims) and asked me if I was doing any triathlons this late summer/fall.  I confessed to her I have been really struggling with open water.  I felt kind of awkward, but I am not going to pretend I'm a die hard athlete who can do it all because I'm still very much learning.  My swimming still needs quite a bit of improvement.  Yesterday was better in terms of energy.  I didn't take any naps.  I didn't feel as edgy either.  I am not really sore anymore either.

Thursday - Group Power 1 hour

It was the same workout as last two weeks.  Next week they change it up.  So many push ups, but they weren't as hard as last few weeks.  I increased my weight on most tracks as well.  School starts next week and trying to figure out how to schedule my workouts.  I'd like to run three times a week versus two and still want to swim and bike as well.  My idea right now is Monday:  Running (intervals/track)  Tuesday:  Regular run Wednesday: Swim  Thursday:  Power  Friday:  Group Ride  Saturday:  Off Sunday:  Long Run  This would only mean swimming and biking once a week versus twice.  I can do stationary bike after Power--I usually have enough time.  I will probably not do brick workouts until later in the winter when it gets closer to tri season.

Friday - Ran 4 miles

I did a run this morning at around 8 AM before Rob & the older two left for Portland.  It was really humid.  I couldn't catch my breath at certain points.  I ate so horrible today I am almost ashamed. It was special outings and I don't normally eat like this at all.  I probably gained a whole extra pound.  Yuck.  Don't feel the need to do My Fitness Pal again though because my weight has been really steady.  I just can't eat like I did today very often or it will go up.  :(

Saturday - Rest but lots of cleaning

I had a sinus headache off and on Friday and ate terrible as stated above.  I had a stomach ache when I went to bed.  I woke up at 2 AM and felt yucky.  It was cramping but I did not feel like it was a bad stomach bug.  I tend to get anxious when this happens and have a hard time relaxing.  So I laid on the family couch and took a bunch of deep breaths and fell asleep until around 5. I felt significantly better.  Then I went back to bed and slept until 8.  I had planned on going to the gym in the morning but ditched that idea at 2 AM.  I did do a ton of cleaning.  I think I cleaned from 9:30 AM until 4:30 PM with a half hour break.  Not to mention on Friday I did about 4 hours of work at church taking down wall paper and priming.  Lots of labor lately.  I have a little more to do on Monday.

Sunday - Ran 1 mile

Just no motivation and I don't know why.  I think I'm just tired from all the cleaning, organizing, and working at church.  Only mile today.  I had energy and strength to run more--just not motivated.  Hailey & I are going to do a 5K in September.  We ran one mile.  She ran the first half straight at a great pace.  Took a short walk break and ran the rest of the way.  Her mile time was about 12 1/2 minutes.  Not a bad start.

Monday, August 19, 2013

August 18 - 25

Monday - Ran 3 miles

Monday mornings are hard.  They are going to be even harder once school starts because I have to start earlier.  I got out the door by 6:45.  I ran three miles.  It was fine.  My right knee is slightly giving out at times.  I am going to use poles when I hike on Saturday or I'm worried it is going to give totally out or I will get bursitis. I probably am due for new running shoes and have to add to the list of other things I need to buy.  :(  I also slept funny again last night and left shoulder and neck hurt again.  That didn't really affect my running at all.  I got a gift card for a massage and will probably get it after we climb St. Helens.

Tuesday - Outside Biking - 1 hour - approximately 14 miles

Hard to get up again today.  Managed to get out the door by about 6:10 AM.  I biked to Minto Brown.  My seat still needs to be fixed and I have to go to the bike shop.  I have to wiggle it back into place after I over a bump and feel like I am doing a butt dance. Biking there is almost downhill the whole way.  Biking back was much harder...I was pretty tired.  All in all it was great ride and good way to start the day.  Plus I like biking at Minto in the morning when the steam is coming off the pond and the river is so calm.

Rob is not sick but has some stomach thing and really hoping it's isolated and I don't get it.  His appetite is pretty normal and he went to work so hoping it's nothing major.  We've been SO blessed with little illness this whole year.  Just colds which most of us can handle pretty well.

I was reading previous entries from a few years ago when I was struggling with anxiety.  It's really good to have it recorded and trace patterns.  I have been on an antidepressant Welbutrin which is different from Prozak, Zoloft, and Paxil which are related for a year now.  It has really evened out my moods.  I still get irritable and anxious at times, but it seems less severe and doesn't last for days.  Honestly sometimes it seems to only last 1 hour or so and I can find my way out of it.  I can think clearly and make sound decisions.  I still exaggerate at times and can be dramatic...some of that is part of my personality and who I am...but I have learned to express myself in a more positive way.  Some people who are very introverted are encouraged to show more emotion and express their feelings.  I, on the other hand, have had to learn to find a poker face and keep my emotions under control until I can express them in the right context.  Not always easy, but not nearly as hard as it used to be.

Wednesday - Swam 40 minutes

My tri friends are on a biking expedition.  They told me ahead of time they wouldn't be at the pool this morning.  I opted to go after the other tri people had already left.  These are the hard hard core tri people who compete like every single weekend and place.  They hadn't been at the pool for months, but they were there this morning.  I got to the pool as they were leaving.  Mornings have been hard this week.  I am so tired and don't want to get up.  I have been fighting it bad.  I almost went back to sleep and was going to say to "Screw it" to swimming this morning like six times.  I managed to get out the door by 6:10--a little later than I hoped.  I am going to have to go earlier once school starts. I did get a good workout in.  I worked on specific drills I needed to work on.  As much as I love swimming with others I was able to do the whole workout at my own pace and not worry about keeping up...or condensing down the workout.  My 50 yard swim time is still about 1 minute 20 seconds and I worked on some speed drills as well.  I know I love summer especially the daylight, warm weather, open schedule.  Today I just feel ready for fall and want to get moving with it.  The kids need it too.  They are ready for school.

Thursday - Group Power - 1 hour

Power was better today.  Not nearly as painful as past two weeks.  A little easier to get up this morning even though I did contemplate not going.  Kara is not feverish and ate most of her breakfast, but she's coughing pretty bad and wants to lay on the couch.  She has skipped her nap for the past five days and I know she's overtired.  Hoping I don't get sick tonight or tomorrow or Saturday as we're climbing Mt. Saint Helens.  I think I could still climb with a cold and take it slow so hoping it's not much worse than that.

Friday - Rest

It was Rob's birthday and we had a couple things planned.  Plus we had to drop the kids off at VB's house at 3:30 PM and depart for St. Helens by 4:30.  I wanted to run, but was sore from Power.  Decided to rest.

Saturday - Mt Saint Helens Climb - 10 hours

I am doing a blog post about it on my other blog.  We started around 8:15 AM and reached the summit by around 2.  We sat at the summit for close to an hour.  We made it to the tree line just after 5 and were back to camp around 6:15 PM.  Long day, but what an accomplishment!  It was not like a hike...more like a rock climb.  The forest was about 2 miles.  Once we were out the forest it was climbing boulders.  There was no marked trail, just poles pointing you in the right direction.  Then it was all loose rock to the top.  Rob really struggled the last two hours or so.  He couldn't catch his breath and it was causing him to feel sick and have no appetite.  We think he might have a form of asthma.  The air was getting thinner and he couldn't breathe very well--he almost quit and was going to sit and wait for us.  He kept going.  Jennifer and I left the group and pushed our way to the top.  I felt pretty good most of the climb...tired at times and sick of the boulders...but overall good.  Rob flew going down.  At times I was having a hard time keeping up with Rob, Jennifer, and Karen but I am much shorter climbing over the rocks.  I was so thankful I had my hiking poles!  They helped so much.  Craig and Joy took their time on the rocks and were behind us.  But they caught up to us at the tree line.  We only saw Matt, Devin, Adam, Matt & Denise at the summit but we realized they were only 15 minutes ahead of us.  They actually took longer going down than going up whereas it was the other way around with our group.  It was very exciting to have completed it.  I am very sore, but I love hiking!  Karen and I were already talking what hikes we want to do next.

Sunday - Rest

Monday, August 12, 2013

August 11 - 17

Monday - Ran 3 miles

It feels like summer is over and it's a tad bit depressing.  I LOVE summer and I feel like this summer went way, way, way too fast.  We've done so much but I wish we had time to do even more.

I did get out this morning and ran 3 miles around the Sumpter Park neighborhood.  It was a really good run.

Tuesday - Biked 50 minutes

It's been a little bit of an adjustment having Rob back at work and very busy with pastoral stuff.  Not the mention the fall kick off for fall programs is looming and I don't feel ready for it.  Thankful that I don't have a lot going this week so at least I can get stuff around the house etc.

I did get my bike out a little later than expected so I could not bike to Minto.  I did bike the Rees Hill loop and it was a good ride.  My bike seat needs to be tightened and adjusted--it's loose and not right at all.  My friend from church looked at it briefly and wasn't sure how to fix it.  If Rob doesn't have the tools I am going to go up to the bike mechanic at the end of the street.  I am still not as motivated to bike.  I just wish we had trails like the ones behind my parent's house.  Biking at Minto is so nice but you have to dodge and go through so many high traffic areas to even get there.  Once the rain comes and it's darker in the mornings I won't be able to bike outside so I guess I should enjoy while I can.

Wednesday - Swam 1 hour

Really worked on my form today.  I realized I was swimming and not fully utilizing my right side...like it was numb or paralyzed or something...not totally following through.  I worked on that today.  My right arm is sore which is good...means it's getting stronger.  I felt like this increased my speed too.  I did about 3/4 of the triathlete's workout.  Glenn suggested swimming with the kickboard as a target of where my arms need to go so I am going to do that later in the week when I do my shorter swim.  It's really been a great week.  Despite summer feeling so short, I am feeling good.

Thursday - Group Power 1 hour

So it's Launch Week at the gym and the theme is "Go Big!" and you're supposed to wear costumes.  I almost showed this morning in Derek's play construction hat or Hailey's princess crown or some other costume.  I decided to wear my big Red and white M & M socks and red t-shirt with the dogs and cats on it.  Glad I didn't go all out because NO ONE was wearing costumes.  The early morning crowd is very serious...or they just haven't woken up...or both.

Power had an emphasis on "body" which meant we did not use the bar as much.  Which I liked.  Except for ALL the push ups which were grueling.  The triceps track was by the far the hardest with all the tricep dips and push ups.  I struggled on the overhead presses on all the tracks too.  I felt good and glad I could make it two weeks in a row.  Doing well with being disciplined and scheduled and need to keep it up.

Friday - Backwards Brick:  Group Ride (50 minutes) & Swim - 1/2 hour

It's been SUCH a great week of exercise.  Loving it.  I went to 8 AM Ride.  The kids slept in and so did Rob.  7:45 felt like sleeping in to me after the several early mornings this week.  I had not been to ride in awhile.  I wish I would have not taken the bike in the back because it was harder to hear and figure out what was going on.  It was a good workout.  I swam doing my own workout--the pool was SO busy.  I like the early mornings when it's quieter.  I worked on form again.  Also worked on sighting (swimming with eyes closed).  Also worked on arms with the pull buoy.

Saturday - Rest

I think I deserved it!

Sunday - Run 4 miles

I actually got out before church and ran for the first time in probably years.  It's the best time to run but never motivated enough to do it.  The neighborhood is so quiet and there's no traffic...just other runners.  Saw quite a few.  Also bought a new chord for my ipod so I could put new songs on finally.  The run went really well.  I ran the Sumpter route.  Going to slowly increase my mileage.

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

August 5 - August 11

Tuesday - Ran 3 miles

It's been a very long time...too long.  I wanted to exercise during VBS week, but it was way too hard.  Rob & I were busy from 7 AM sometime until late in the evening every single day.  I got a sore throat that got progressively worse as the week went on.  On vacation I had planned on getting some runs in but no motivation whatsoever.  I did get three open water swims in at the cottage and both Glenn & Megan coached me.  It was super helpful and my swimming has improved because of it.

This morning I started up again and did an easy three mile.  I went slow and I can tell I have not run in a couple weeks.  It was not overly tiring nor painful.

Came back to see a homeless guy sleeping in front of the church sanctuary doors.  Nice.  Not sure how our church should be involved in South Salem's ongoing homeless young adults problem.

Wednesday - Pool Swim with triathletes- 1 hour and 10 minutes

Rob & I were having a lengthy conversations with my on going struggles with mornings and why anxiety seems to hit me once the alarm goes off.  I always assumed it was anxiety or worse just plain laziness.  I realized I am the not most disciplined person when it comes to different areas of my life.  I can trace that back to several things.  I tend to take the "easy way out" and regret it later.  Rob asked if it would be OK if he would gently nudge me out of bed so I can get my workouts in.  Come fall, early mornings is the ONLY time I can work out.  I watching some of teachers kids from ILS and one of my MOP friend's kindergarten girl.  The income is going to be so helpful and I feel like I am at a place where I will enjoy this and can take pride in it...I would not have been successful if I tried to do this a few years ago...even last year.  I enjoyed watching Annabelle last year and that was enough prep for me to take on more this year.  So I have to get my morning routine on now as it will take a couple of weeks to get a good system going.

I am not really training for anything right now. My main reason is I am not comfortable enough yet to do an open water sprint triathlon.  I am shooting for next June.  I also need to watch my finances.  I need a good running GPS and I'm also planning a trip to LA with my best friend from Michigan to visit a mutual friend.  I also will need new running shoes come winter.  I need a new chord for my running ipod.  I should probably buy a spare set of goggles and swim cap eventually.  I want to take a biking maintenance course sometime in late 2013 or 2014.  It all adds up!

I was very disciplined this morning and went to Master Swim.  There were a lot of people there.  I really worked on my form and tried to remember the things Glenn & Megan told me.  I felt like I was going so slow.  Normally I can do 3/4 of the triathletes workout, but I felt like I was only doing 1/2.  They said it was a longer and tougher workout today so I didn't feel quite so bad about my slowness.  Plus I have not swam with them since right around the 4th of July.  I feel like my form is a lot better.  Near the end of the workout I felt way more comfortable.

Thursday - Group Power

This morning I made it to Power and I can't even remember the last time I was there.  I am thinking it was right before the 4th of July.  I knew it would hurt...and yep...it was hard.  All of it.  But it was great to be there and start strength training again. I feel like I can continue with early mornings.  I am feeling good about it.  Once school starts I think I am only going to do Power on Thursday mornings and not cardio afterwards.  It's too much.  I will probably need to shower at the gym anyway so I can make it on time before the kids need to get ready for school.  I didn't do any cardio this morning because the kitchen was a disaster and I wanted to get it cleaned up before the kids woke up...and I knew it would take me awhile.

Weekend - rest

I was hoping to workout more than three times this week.  I have been having female problems since Friday morning that has caused fatigue and cramping.  We also had a very busy weekend running from one activity to the next.  Looking forward to starting up again next week.

I am not going to push myself to do open water swims right now. I need to work on my stroke in the pool. We were at Andrew & Cheryl's pool this weekend and I was showing my stroke.  Rob said it still looks off.  He is a better swimmer than me, but he has not swam laps in a long time.  He did plead ignorance on some things.  He said he thought you were supposed to breathe on the same side whereas my swim teacher said you do bilateral breathing and breathe on multiple sides.  That is how the people I swim with on Wednesday mornings do it.  I am not following through enough on my right side which is why I am constantly veering off to the right.  I thought about signing up for Adult Swim Lessons this fall at the Kroc Center again.  I really want lessons where the teacher gets in the pool with you and demonstrates the strokes which is not what my teacher did.  So I will probably take them at the gym I go to.  The instructors there work with triathletes.  The problem is that it costs almost twice as much so it might be a couple weeks before I could do it--maybe longer.


Monday, July 8, 2013

Sept Tri Week #3

Monday - Rest

Rob was commenting on at the beginning of the summer we were utilizing the fact Hailey didn't have to get off to school and we could start work/projects early and have extra time in the morning as the kids usually sleep past 7.  Now we've gotten lazy and sleeping until 7:30 and Rob has been getting into the office after 8. :)  I was so incredibly tired this morning I just slept and was OK taking another day off exercise.  I slept so hard which was good, but I've been tired all day.  We had a couple late nights over the weekend so figured I would be tired today.

The VB's called and said I am welcome to practice open water swimming on their lake anytime I want.  Which is totally awesome.  I tried on my wet suit again.  Not sure if I just put on differently or if I have indeed lost weight because it fits perfectly.  I am going to get some running and biking these next two weeks before we leave for the Midwest, but my primary focus is open water.  Not sure if I can do the triathlon in September, but want to shoot for doing an open water one earlier in the season next year if at all possible.  Like in late June or early July.  I'll take all the practice I can get this summer so I start a bit more confident next summer.

Tuesday - Open Water - 1/2 hour swim

It was such a beautiful morning and so quiet around VB's lake.  I think I just love "the nature" of outside swimming.  It went a lot better than last time.  I like swimming in the wet suit--it's easier.  I could also see a little bit in the water--not much, but more than I thought.  I worked on sighting.  So I did a couple strokes, switched to breaststroke/doggy paddle and aligned back straight.  Going back I kept veering way off to the right.  I went across the lake and back--then I practiced sighting more swimming back to the dock.  I still need lots of practice, but feel like I made a little progress.

Wednesday - Swam 1 hour

I swam with the triathletes again.  It was a tough workout.  We did lots of 300's and mostly freestyle the whole time.  I really worked on my form as I know it will help me with open water.  Good to get up early too.  I got a lot of work done afterwards before the kids got up.

Thursday - Ran 4 miles

I ran during Rob's lunch and did a solid four miles.  I ran pretty fast and it went great.  Weather was perfect.  Going into such a busy busy week.  Really want to stick with exercising this week.

Monday, July 1, 2013

Sept Tri Week #2

Monday - Ran 4 miles

Going to be a scorching week until around Thursday.  Was supposed to hit 95 today.  I got out by 6:45 and I could already feel the humidity.  I ran the Skyline to Davis route which I have not run in over a year.  I told myself I would allow myself to walk whenever I needed.  It was hard to catch my breath.  I only had to do two little short walk breaks.  My pace was slower...I could tell.  I went through a whole small water bottle.  It was great to get out and run especially before the heat of the day.  It was just was a harder run compared to other days.

Tuesday - Biked 1 hour

Got out again around the same time...around 6:45.  Did the Rees Hill route.  Didn't feel as hot out as yesterday morning, but still going to be a hot day.  Was happy I get to escape and go to the coast.  My neck and back are sore, but I am pretty sure that's from weeding the garden not biking.

Wednesday - Swam 1 hour

Despite being at the coast all day and still unpacking the van at 9PM, I told myself I AM going to swim with the triathletes in the morning.  I didn't really sleep well.  The A/C is fixed, but's still muggy at night.  I got a little sunburned and never sleep well with sunburn.  I still managed to get to the gym super early and thankful for a more intense workout.  I need it and I don't push myself enough when I am going solo.  We did some side drills which will help me on weaker side.

Thursday - Ran/Walk 2.6 miles with Hailey

Hailey and I ran the Monmouth mini marathon and she did great.  Finished in a little over 31 minutes.  She ran/walked it and didn't complain hardly at all.  Weather was perfect too.  Fun morning.

Friday - Ran 5 miles

Kind of a lazy day.  We slept in.  Then tried to get some things done around the house.  I ended up going running in the early evening.  It was good run despite feeling a little tired.

Saturday - Brick Workout:  Swam half hour, Biked 40 minutes

Did a swim plan workout in the pool followed by biking about 40 minutes on the stationary bike in the afternoon.  Good workout.

Sunday - Rest

Monday, June 24, 2013

Sept Tri Week #1

Monday - Ran 3 miles

OK so last week was a little crazy mood wise.  I was in charge of a camping trip in the rustic wilderness of central Oregon with my middle schoolers...which actually turned out to be a blast.  But the anticipation and planning really made my mood go south.  I also was dealing with (I think) a hormone imbalance and the normal "June" blues I get this time of year.  This morning I greatly limited my computer time because I have a mountain of laundry and the kids have needed a little extra attention.  That helped significantly.  I feel great today.  I feel on top of things and not overwhelmed at all.

I ran to Woodmansee Park and through the trails and back home during Rob's lunch.  It's about three miles.  It was a great run. It was one of those days I felt like I could run for miles and miles.

I didn't really exercise at all last week.  I just couldn't handle it on top of everything else.  I really missed swimming with the triathletes and riding my bike to Minto...but I had to put it on hold.

In central Oregon we did go on a 3 mile hike Thursday night and about a 2 mile hike on Friday.  So I did some exercise.  Yesterday I ran a mile with Hailey as well.  We ran almost the whole way except for two little short walk breaks.

I am not going to try to run the half in August.  It's just too much to take on right now.  My goal is to the tri at the beginning of the September, but I can't commit to it yet.

Tuesday - Rest

I did not exercise today and it was not due to laziness.  Rob had an early morning meeting, a lunch meeting, and I had too much to do in the evening.  There really was no time.  Bleck.

Wednesday - Swam about 35 minutes

I had planned on swimming with the triathletes.  Since the kids have been going to bed later and it's lighter out, we have been going to bed later.  I wasn't asleep until after 11:30 AM.  I made it to the gym by 6:30 AM and ran into the triathletes leaving.  I felt really dumb.  Rob said it's like running into the preacher and trying to explain to him why you haven't been in church.  I did a great workout from Swim Plan and was glad to get into the water.  I also ran with Hailey at the park and biked with Hailey & Derek to the park.  Thankful the weather is changing to more summerlike again.

Thursday - Bike 45 minutes

I thankfully was able to bike during Rob's lunch and it was great to get out. Weather was perfect.  Been so tired lately at night.  Been working on VBS stuff until 10 at night.  Mornings have been harder.

Friday - Stationary Bike 47 minutes

Worked a little easier to go to the gym and ride the stationary bike.  It was a very hot day and I couldn't get to the gym until later anyway.  I did intervals on the stationary bike and watched a documentary on CNN.  Good workout.  Going to do my first open water swim tomorrow at VB's lake.

Saturday - Swam across VB's lake (about 350 yards)

It was tough!  Matt & Mike took off and were way, way ahead of me.  Rob went beside me in the inflatable boat and Derek & Hailey were riding in it too.  I kept veering off to the left constantly.  My endurance was OK.  It is so hard not being able to see anything and the cold spots in the lake.  Rob said once I followed through on my strokes better I was going straighter, but it was hard.  I felt like my ego was crushed.  I so want to try again.

Sunday - Rest

And the A/C broke!  And it's in the mid 90's!

Monday, June 10, 2013

Tri/Half Week #2

Monday - Biked 1 hour

I told Rob before I went to bed I was going to the track workout with the triathletes.  I had planned on it.  The alarm went off and I was wide awake.  I just could not go.  I don't what it was.  I think just anxiety of running with people who are so much faster than me (but don't care and are still really nice and encouraging--I know it doesn't make sense!).  I did get up at 5:30 though and biked to Minto Brown, all around the park, and back home.  It was an amazing bike ride and so cool to see the mist coming off the pond and river...so beautiful out in the morning.  Hardly any traffic to deal with either.  Loved it.  So I guess it's not a total loss.

I have told people one of the main reasons I joined the triathlon club is because I am sick of exercising alone.  But now I think honestly I love exercising alone and would almost prefer it.  It's the only alone time I get in a day.  Being an extrovert I love to be around people and almost NEED to be around people in order to function at my best.  I guess I'm introverted when it comes to exercise.  Although for some reason I love swimming with others.  I might be doing my first open water swim with Matt & Denise later in the week.  I will go to a track workout again soon.  I will get myself there.

Tuesday - Ran 4 miles

Very hard to get up this morning.  Little motivation and mild anxiety.  Thankfully today was a great day and we had a lot of fun.  I am loving the summer mode.  I did run at 7 AM and was back before Rob had to go to the office.  It was a nice run.  My body feels a little tight and I don't feel totally back in the groove yet.  But I am doing OK.  I am slowly increasing my mileage hoping to peak at 13 by early late July/early August.

Wednesday - Swam 1 hour

I did the next personal workout from Swim Plan.  The triathletes informed me they wouldn't be here this week so I wasn't really expecting them.  The gym was like a ghost town because it is the first official day of summer for the public schools so everyone is sleeping in.  She said it will start picking up again.  I so did not want to get up this morning, but I knew I would feel better once I did.  The Swim plan workout was hard, but I wanted to really push myself.  It was a lot of 25 yards and 50's as the warm up and then 1000 yards with the pull buoy.  That was huge and took forever, but I stuck with it.

Thursday - Rest

I decided to skip out of Group Power this morning and sleep in.  I was so tired last night and didn't sleep great.  I figured I worked out three mornings in a row and my body needed the break.  I also just have absolutely no interest in Power right now. I don't know why.  I can't go to Power Friday or Saturday due to a full weekend so I will have to table it to next week and figure out why I don't want to go to it.  :(

Friday - Bike 3 1/2 miles, Group Power, Swim 1/2 hour, Bike 3 1/2 miles

Now I know why I didn't want to go to Group Power.  You skip for several weeks and go back and it's brutal.  This whole workout kicked my butt and I literally felt sick until around 4 PM today.  I started the workout at 8:45 AM.  The weather was fine, but it was really windy biking.  Power was hard.  The triceps, biceps, and core were the hardest--but it was all challenging.  I did another swim on swim plan which had lots of backstroke on it.  My backstroke is really slow and I hit the lady in the lane with me twice with my arm...I hope she wasn't annoyed.  I felt so sluggish swimming.  I showered at the gym and that meant biking home in my jeans.  Which was OK, but I was so exhausted by that point.  I really just wanted to get home.  I was so hungry when I got home, tired, and thirsty.  I probably did not eat enough nor drink enough before the workout.  I am glad I stuck it out.  Years ago if I would have felt like how I did this morning I would have just sat it out and not even tried.

I need to try to go to Power at least once a week.  Twice would be ideal, but I can't make that work with my schedule.  It really does help all the cardio activities I do.  I just wish they offered it on Wednesday and Friday mornings like they used to.  Thursday early morning and Friday mid morning are really the only times I can go most weeks.

Saturday - Rest

I did not run yesterday and not sure if I am going to be able to today.  We will see how the day goes.  I am struggling a little bit with some mood issues.  I often do this time of year.  Last year I had one of the worst anxiety set backs I have had since the 90's.  Some of it was circumstances.  I was dealing with some irrational people (that I know are irrational and everyone else knew...and they all had my back) but their verbal attacks still hurt like crazy.  I daresay it's not totally in the past yet.  I really learned a lot about loving your enemies, having a humble heart, and looking at the plank in your own eye before seeing the sawdust in another person's.  Sometimes it's hard going through life knowing someone out there despises you when you are a people pleaser like myself.  This year thankfully it's been nothing to that degree at all.  Even the cloudy and cooler days mixed with rain we always get in June have not bothered me like they used to.  Warm summery weather does not really begin here until the 4th of July and sometimes even mid July. I was always used to late May/early June when I lived in the Midwest.  The nice thing is it often sticks around until October--last year we still had some warm days even in late October and early November.  We don't have humidity.  I am not used to humidity anymore.  Last year in Philly many of us felt sick at times from all the humidity and the air conditioning aka artificial air as we usually turn on our A/C 1-2 weeks out of the summer.  It cools enough by 8 PM that we shut it off for the night.

Anyway this whole mood downer has really affected my exercise this week.  I did workout Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday & Friday, but my heart wasn't in it.  It was so hard to get started and going.  Afterwards I still felt like I was in a lull.  I feel more agitated this morning and frustrated at the kids.  I feel zero motivation.  I am hoping it's just temporary and will turn around soon.

My heart is not into trying to do this half marathon in August.  I like the idea of the triathlon in September, but only if I can get some open water swims in.  Denise is really interested in swimming with me as soon as the weather gets warmer again.  I think a half marathon in the winter is very possible or else holding off until next spring.  I really don't want to push myself to get my mileage so high by August.  I'd rather take my time getting there.

Monday, June 3, 2013

Tri/Half Week #1

Monday - Ran 3 miles

Yay!  Exercise is back!  Good week too.  Lots of sun and warmth after about 10 days of rain.  I ran my regular 3 mile route thinking I would need to walk at time after the break (and eating bad too).  But I felt great and the break was probably what my body was asking for.

I don't know what I'm doing next.  I would like to do Best of the West tri in September but only if I can get some open water practices in.  The reservoir is a 45 minute drive which might make scheduling tricky.  Matt said I could swim in his lake so that might be a possibility too.

Albany is having their first ever half marathon this August.  It's pretty cheap and I know someone else doing it.  So that might be a possibility too.  The summer is by far the best time to run here and train as we have cool mornings and evenings and zero rain between July and September.  I'm sure I'll decide soon.

For now the only thing I am committing to is the Monmouth Mini (2.6 mile) on 4th of July with Hailey.

Tuesday - 45 minute bike ride

Rob worked from home this morning after he dropped Hailey off from school and I was able to do the Rees Hill loop.  Such a nice ride!  Really enjoyed getting by bike out again.

Going to swim with the triathletes tomorrow morning.  Haven't swam with them since before the triathlon.  Hope I survive.

Wednesday - Swam 50 minutes

Last year after Rob came home from St. Louis, it was a very very difficult next few weeks.  Like it was harder than he was away.  If anyone has ever dealt with anxiety or depression, they would totally get it.  While he was away last year, I was in "I can do this.  I can survive" mode and I did really well.  When he came home, I knew he was back and the load was slightly lifted.  He came to our weekend camp church out (which neither of us really wanted to go to but we kind of had to) less than 24 hours after being home and jumped right into meeting after meeting. I felt abandoned, tired, and constantly on the edge of emotions.  I was an emotional wreck to the point I lost it an Educational meeting and realized I was NOT doing well.  I really didn't start "to feel better" until mid July and significantly better until mid August.  This past year has been one of the most stable years I have had mood wise in a very long time...if ever.

I knew this week (the week post St. Louis) would be hard.  It has been more emotional than others and honestly I don't feel the greatest right now mood wise and I haven't all week--but I am doing TONS better than last year.  I haven't lashed out on the kids or gotten overly annoyed with them.  The house is not driving me crazy.  The weather has been summery and gorgeous.  I have been able to jump right back into early morning exercise.  So I hoping next week is even better.

This morning I went swimming and none of the triathletes were in the pool.  I feel like I am on the Seinfeld episode where Jerry doesn't know the same of his girlfriend.  The girl I have gotten to know the most and given me lots of triathlon advice went to Group Ride and we ran into one another later on in the locker room.  I don't know her name!  I feel so embarrassed because I have swam with her now for a few months and I still don't know her name.  I know everyone else's name.  She said that the other girls are out of town or have family visiting and won't be there next week either, but plan on being there the following week.  She said everyone is kind of in and out during the summer.  She told me about the website where she gets most her workouts.

This morning I did 1 x 100 Warm Up, 1 x 50 kickboard, 1 x 200 pull, 5 x 100 fast, 1 x 50 kickboard, 1 x 200 pull, 2 x 100 (back stroke & free), and 1 x 50 cool down.  It was a great workout!

Thursday - Rest

Full Day!

Friday - Brick:  Swim approx. 25 minutes Run 5 K

I did a swim workout off Swim Plan and it was great.  Felt like I was gliding through the pool and increasing my pace.  Running was crummy on the treadmill.  The arches on my feet hurt--maybe from wearing flip flops all the time?  I felt like I couldn't breathe.  At times I felt like I was about to gag.  Not fun.  Was happy when it was over.  I only ran for 28 minutes--the 5K track.

Saturday - Ran 5 miles

Running was better today.  Did my regular 5 mile route through Sumpter neighborhood.  First run in 80 degree temps so I did stop extra to drink water.  I went through a whole water bottle.  I had to go slow, but I felt good through most of the run.  Hoping to increase my mileage each weekend.

Sunday - Rest