Monday, February 24, 2014

February 24 - March 2

Monday - Track Workout:  about a 1200 warm-up and then 400, 800, 1200, 1600, 1200, and 800 (supposed to do another 400 but skipped it) with 400 recovery between.  Did about a 800 cool down.

I have not been to the track workouts since October.  I've been meaning to go, but have had every excuse in the book not to.  I am a tad self conscious because I am so much slower than everyone and often get lapped.  But it's a nice safe place to do intervals and I'm usually done by 6:30 which is gives me a whole hour on Monday mornings before child care kids come.  It will make me faster running those who are much faster.  It is motivating...but not going to lie...intimidating too.  Angie was there who is this elite triathlete I see at the gym all the time.  She is very sweet and I talked to her a little bit.

The running was hard.  I felt like crap most of the run.  Side aches, fatigue and I was overdressed.  Yesterday morning it was so cold.  I had to wear a jacket on top of my running shirt, hat, gloves, and long running pants.  This morning I took off my hat and jacket.  I had on a short sleeve shirt and running pants and I was way too hot.  I needed shorts and wished I had a pair in my car.  I seriously would have changed in the van.  I was glad I pushed through it and kept going.  I will go again hopefully soon.  I didn't mind once it started raining because it cooled me off.  I still have sore abs (I think from swimming and Power last week) and my appetite has been weird again...might be a side effect from my medication.  But I feel so much better today and ready for a new week.

Tuesday - Rest

Wonderful to rest!

Wednesday - Swam 1 hour

Normal swim workout.  More speed workouts today.  I felt pretty good during most of it.  The pool was not as busy.

Thursday - Rest

I really wanted to go to Group Power because it was the only day I could go.  But the dumb cat was meowing all over the hall last night.  She's not been doing that at night anymore so we've not been locking her up in the laundry room.  By the time I caught the cat and put her in the laundry room, I was too awake and it took me awhile to fall back asleep so I needed to sleep until 6:30 and not get up early.  Dumb cat.

Friday - Group Ride

Was pretty tired, but made it to Ride.  Glad I did because Rob was leaving for a retreat and that would be my one and only time to exercise.

Saturday - Brick:  25 minutes swim & 27 stationary bike

Had to be a shorter brick because Rob did not get home until later.  Still was able to squeeze it in.

Sunday - Ran 6.4 miles

So so so glad the rain dissipated by the afternoon.  It was only a light rain and warm--so easy to run in.  It was a great run too.  I felt great.

Monday, February 17, 2014

February 16- 23

Monday - Ran/Walk 12 minutes and Ran 3 miles

I was going to run this morning and break out of this unmotivated crummy funk.  It was so windy and pouring buckets of rain.  The kids have no school today and I have no child care kids.  So I took advantage of running during Rob's lunch.  It was clear and warm...no rain.  Even some sun.  I kind of miss the lunch hour run.  I like working too, but I did enjoy that midday break once upon a time when I had it.  I ran/walk with Hailey before I did the 3 miles.  She wants to run on it her own and not with me beside her.  So I tell her to run ahead.  I run and when I get to close to her, I walk.  Not sure if she wants to do it that way on the actual 5K or not.  I guess I'm fine either way.  I think she paces better when I'm not beside her.  My 3 mile run was great--felt wonderful.  Haven't run that well in awhile.  Last week kind of stunk.

Tuesday - Rest

Such massive rain today.  :(  I will run when it's sprinkling or raining lightly.  I refuse to run in the dark morning if it's pouring.

Wednesday - Swam 1 hour

The pool was busy this morning and we had two extra people in our swimming group which was kind of fun.  I need to get used to swimming with so many people again.  The workout was longer--a lot of 200's and 300's.  I felt tired at points, but pushed myself to keep going.  Was glad I made it there.  Yesterday was kind of a harder day and I was dealing with a stressful situation among some of the kids I did not see coming.  I tend to overreact to everything, but thankfully not in front of the kids.  I am getting pretty good about handling emotions and stress in a positive way around them and dealing with it deeper at a more opportune time.  I think we might have some harder days ahead, but I feel more at peace this morning with everything.

Thursday - Power and ran on treadmill about 27 minutes

Power was really good.  I had to keep the weight lower because I haven't been in a couple of weeks.  The tricep pushups were a killer, but still good to push myself on it.  I ran on the treadmill afterwards for about 27 minutes.  I kept it easy again...no incline and 6.0 speed.  I feel like I am getting back into things again after being in a lull.

Friday - Biked outside 1 hour

Took my bike outside for the first time since last fall!  Yay!  It was a good ride. I went from 4:30 - 5:30--nice it's lighter out later.  Going to Group Ride has really helped a lot.  The hills aren't quite so hard anymore.  I did not wear clips.  Just not real confident on the road with them yet...especially at 5 PM when the roads are so busy.

Saturday - Brick Workout:  Swam 35 minutes Stationary Bike 37 minutes

Good brick workout.  Swimming went great.  Worked on drills and even tried breaststroke again even though I am not doing it right.  Stationary bike is kind of boring, but with music and watching HGTV it was OK.  Good week of exercise despite it being somewhat of a stressful week...again.  :(  Mood wise, I've kind of been in a funk, but Rob & I were able to stay home tonight and play Skipbo and kind of talk about life in general...that was really helpful. I always seem to get in a funk in February...pretty consistent with my life.

Sunday - Ran 5 miles

Rob set the alarm for 4:30 AM to watch the Olympic hockey game.  I sleep pretty hard so I managed to sleep until 5:45 and watched the last half of the third period.  Then I ran from 7 AM - 8 AM.  I need to run Sunday mornings.  It's just so peaceful and quiet.  It was great.  It also was sunny.  The rain come later in the afternoon.  Hailey did her run on the South Salem track and by that time it was raining.  She didn't complain and ran a mile in 11:54 and ran 14 minutes straight with about a 30 second break...so proud of her!

Mood wise, I am pretty sure I have a form of adult ADHD on top of my anxiety.  My anxiety is pretty much under control.  I have not had a major setback in now almost two years.  I will always deal with it and struggle with it and maybe have another set back someday, but it's been significantly better.  I feel like adult ADHD (if that is indeed what I have) is not under control.  I read a website and I have so many of the symptoms.  I am not ready to go the medication route because I am not sure how severe it is.  There's some good lifestyle suggestions I can implement.  I hate throwing another med in the mix, but if it can help me focus better--I'll go see Dr. V and get his opinion.  I hate feeling like I'm broken all the time, but then again we are all broken.

Thursday, February 13, 2014

February 10 - 16

Skipped last week.  Did workout twice, but didn't record it.  I had a terrible run on Tuesday.  Just felt crappy the whole time.  I had such bad PMS.  I was not irritable or anxious around the kids thankfully.  I felt terrible anxiety that came on in the evenings and lasted until the morning.  I had head aches.  I just felt like crap.  While in Chicago, I ran on the treadmill at my dad's gym with my sister and my dad.  She did much better than me.  I don't know if it was not as much ventilation or the fact I have not run on a treadmill in a very long time, but I could handle about 3 miles and I was done.  I biked the rest of the time.

Monday - Rest

Tuesday - Also rest

Wednesday - Swam 1 hour

It was so good to be back in the water and swim with the girls.  It was hard and I felt a little lagging behind at times.  I did push myself.  It was a great workout.

Thursday - Ran 30 minutes treadmill

I decided at the last minute not to go to Power because this is one of the few weekends I can actually go to 5 PM Power on Friday.  So I opted to run on the treadmill versus run outside.  It was not raining, but it's so dark at 5:30 AM.  I don't mind running at 6:30 because at least it's lighter and getting light.  I know that will change as soon as spring comes.  I also wanted to try the treadmill again because I used to run fine on both.  It was hard and I still don't like the treadmill.  It was better than at my dad's gym.  I thought that by leaving at 5:45, I could run and shower and be back home by the time Abby gets pick up.  But I was playing it too close.  I had barely enough time.

I love this child care job and I love morning exercise.  I feel like I'm a working mom now.  It's hard because friends still invite me to the daytime playdates and I just can't do them anymore.  Evenings are it and it seems like only a few of my friends will actually go out in the evening.  I feel like I'm going through a lonely phase a bit and trying to remain content.  I have a great time with my daycare kids, my own kids, and Rob.  I see Christina often.  I talk to my friends at church.  We're having Seth & Holly over on Saturday. I love my evening Bible Study and I'm getting to know the girls I swim with better.  I think I'm realizing the sacrifices of being a working mom.  At first I didn't care and it didn't phase me.  I've missed the last Moms Next meeting and I've had to say "no" to a couple other things lately.  My stay-at-home mom friends have way more freedom during the day than I used to have--but then again I just wouldn't want to go back to that.  I think I'm way more happier now.  Contentment--that's what I need to keep telling myself.

Friday - Rest

I totally forgot Rob was taking Kara to a movie in the afternoon so I couldn't go to Power.  Realized that at 10 AM and was pretty ticked at myself.  Yesterday was hard in a lot of ways--even with it being Valentines Day.  Just feel stressed and overwhelmed right now.

Saturday - Ride

I am still dealing with this unmotivation.  I had planned on doing a brick workout--swim followed by Ride.  I just couldn't get up for the swim part.  I did get out of the house in time for Ride.  I almost turned the van around twice and went back home.  I almost walked out of class after the first two tracks.  I pushed through it and by the end of it I was so glad I was there and completed it.  I have to remember that feeling.  I still feel a bit stressed and overwhelmed and unfocused--but I trying to push through that too.

Sunday - Rest

Still struggling with stress and unmotivation.  I had a blasted sinus headache all morning that kept going in and out.  I thought it was from the one glass (and it was only one--more like a half) of red wine I had last night with Seth & Holly.  I have gotten headaches from red wine before.  But Rob said there is no way it would linger all day long.  Especially because I had a sinus headache Saturday morning long before I drank the red wine.  I honestly think the headache this time was hormones & stress because I felt irritable too and I have no cold symptoms right now.  This week kind of stunk.