Skipped last week. Did workout twice, but didn't record it. I had a terrible run on Tuesday. Just felt crappy the whole time. I had such bad PMS. I was not irritable or anxious around the kids thankfully. I felt terrible anxiety that came on in the evenings and lasted until the morning. I had head aches. I just felt like crap. While in Chicago, I ran on the treadmill at my dad's gym with my sister and my dad. She did much better than me. I don't know if it was not as much ventilation or the fact I have not run on a treadmill in a very long time, but I could handle about 3 miles and I was done. I biked the rest of the time.
Monday - Rest
Tuesday - Also rest
Wednesday - Swam 1 hour
It was so good to be back in the water and swim with the girls. It was hard and I felt a little lagging behind at times. I did push myself. It was a great workout.
Thursday - Ran 30 minutes treadmill
I decided at the last minute not to go to Power because this is one of the few weekends I can actually go to 5 PM Power on Friday. So I opted to run on the treadmill versus run outside. It was not raining, but it's so dark at 5:30 AM. I don't mind running at 6:30 because at least it's lighter and getting light. I know that will change as soon as spring comes. I also wanted to try the treadmill again because I used to run fine on both. It was hard and I still don't like the treadmill. It was better than at my dad's gym. I thought that by leaving at 5:45, I could run and shower and be back home by the time Abby gets pick up. But I was playing it too close. I had barely enough time.
I love this child care job and I love morning exercise. I feel like I'm a working mom now. It's hard because friends still invite me to the daytime playdates and I just can't do them anymore. Evenings are it and it seems like only a few of my friends will actually go out in the evening. I feel like I'm going through a lonely phase a bit and trying to remain content. I have a great time with my daycare kids, my own kids, and Rob. I see Christina often. I talk to my friends at church. We're having Seth & Holly over on Saturday. I love my evening Bible Study and I'm getting to know the girls I swim with better. I think I'm realizing the sacrifices of being a working mom. At first I didn't care and it didn't phase me. I've missed the last Moms Next meeting and I've had to say "no" to a couple other things lately. My stay-at-home mom friends have way more freedom during the day than I used to have--but then again I just wouldn't want to go back to that. I think I'm way more happier now. Contentment--that's what I need to keep telling myself.
Friday - Rest
I totally forgot Rob was taking Kara to a movie in the afternoon so I couldn't go to Power. Realized that at 10 AM and was pretty ticked at myself. Yesterday was hard in a lot of ways--even with it being Valentines Day. Just feel stressed and overwhelmed right now.
Saturday - Ride
I am still dealing with this unmotivation. I had planned on doing a brick workout--swim followed by Ride. I just couldn't get up for the swim part. I did get out of the house in time for Ride. I almost turned the van around twice and went back home. I almost walked out of class after the first two tracks. I pushed through it and by the end of it I was so glad I was there and completed it. I have to remember that feeling. I still feel a bit stressed and overwhelmed and unfocused--but I trying to push through that too.
Sunday - Rest
Still struggling with stress and unmotivation. I had a blasted sinus headache all morning that kept going in and out. I thought it was from the one glass (and it was only one--more like a half) of red wine I had last night with Seth & Holly. I have gotten headaches from red wine before. But Rob said there is no way it would linger all day long. Especially because I had a sinus headache Saturday morning long before I drank the red wine. I honestly think the headache this time was hormones & stress because I felt irritable too and I have no cold symptoms right now. This week kind of stunk.
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