Sick

In a way I feel like I am back to square one.  On Thursday I ran during Rob's lunch and had a fabulous fast run. My initial plan was to go to Ride on Friday morning.  The alarm went off and I just could not do it.  I was not going to let it ruin my day, but the day got ruined by other factors.  Friday morning was rough and my anxiety was too high again.  I struggled to get through the morning.  I felt significantly better by the afternoon.  Friday night I had the middle school all nighter so I had not planned on exercising at all on Saturday.  I got some sleep, but it was not decent sleep.  I tried to take a nap Saturday afternoon while Rob was working, but the kids were really out of hand and would not let me.  After sending some of them to a mandatory quiet time, I was able to take a long nap and feel somewhat rested. Saturday night I felt fine.  I went to bed that night extra fatigued and I thought it was a result of the all nighter.  Sunday morning at 4 AM I woke up with stomach pain, chills, and eventually a head ache.  I knew I was sick.

I had some of the same symptoms as the day care kids so I knew I caught their virus. I took Kara in last week and the doctor said there is a contagious virus going around.  There is nothing you can do but wait for it to flush itself out.  The lack of sleep and extra stress I have been under probably compromised my immune system.  I slept off and on all day.  The exchange students went to a friend's house after their church and stayed there all day.  They needed that time away and enjoyed being with their friends.  Derek went to a friend's house.  Hailey and Kara did fine on their own after church.  I felt better by the evening so still fatigued and had minor chills.  I only had Powerade and a couple crackers the whole day.  Rob took care of everything even bringing the girls to Immanuel.  I was forever grateful as Sundays are super busy for him.  He even had a meeting after church.

On Monday I woke up feeling significantly better but still low appetite. I decided not to run because I had hardly eaten anything.  I was glad I had no day care kids and the kids were off school.  Overall it was a good day and less stressful than some of the days last week.  I decided to take Tuesday & today off because I am not ready to get up at the crack dawn yet.  Even yesterday afternoon I had chills again around lunch time and no appetite--I almost laid down again but I was afraid I would sleep too long.  Last night I went out with Gretchen and I did not want to cut that short to be home in time to get up this morning.

So today is the first day I don't really feel sick.  I am tired of these setbacks interfering with my exercise.  But I am not training for a marathon or anything--so I don't think it's that big of a deal.  Overall my anxiety level is lower, but I still struggle with some of the day to day issues with the girls. Talking to Gretchen last night was helpful and made me realize I am being too hard on myself.  Derek and Kara were having adjustment issues, but they seem to be resolved.  They actually have done really well the last couple days.

So December was super busy.  January was kicking my butt.  Thankfully things feel a little more in control right now.  I may just start up again with exercise next week...haven't fully decided yet.