Yesterday was the first day since coming home from Camp Calvin I did not feel fatigued or on edge. I took the kids to Neskowin Beach and we had a wonderful day. I had so much fun with them and I loved exploring a new coastal town. We were home at a decent hour too.
I went off my anxiety medication soon after school let out. I noticed zero change whatsoever. I was dealing with some stressful projects such as directing VBS, going to camp, Rob being gone for over a week, and the kids transitioning to summer. It wasn't always easy, but I felt in control of my anxiety. This past week was the first time I felt like I dealing with out of control anxiety again and it stunk. However, it was only one day (Wednesday) and I felt calm and totally normal yesterday as well as today. As Rob and I talked and sorted it out, we attributed to a bunch of other factors. Which makes me think I don't really need to call Dr. V yet and go back on. The fall will be a bigger factor once I go back to work.
The fatigue and emotional drain was frustrating. I hated being so tired. Coming home and getting back into routine was much harder than I thought it would be. For one I came home to lots of unfinished VBS follow-up and Camp Calvin follow-up which took up a lot of time. I was sitting at the pool on Wednesday and I felt like I could have literally shut my eyes and been asleep in five minutes. I'm used to having way more energy.
I did go swimming on Wednesday which I probably should not have. Usually I get to swimming bleary eyed and tired. But by the time I get in the pool I am woken up. I feel quite energized by the end of the workout. This was not the case. Erica and I had a great workout. I came home so tired and almost went back to bed. I felt better in the evening and played tennis for the first time with Cheryl which was way more fun than I thought it would be. We planned on doing this for a long time so I felt like I should not cancel on her. I really wanted to go. I just did not want to be a drag because I was too tired. It was a great workout. I can feel it in my arms. I would like to try it again.
I decided not to go to Power on Thursday seeing if sleeping until 8 would help. It totally did and I had way more energy. This morning I again slept until 8 and went to 9:30 Power since Rob has the day off. I didn't want to go at first, but I got more into it as time went on. I had a good talk with the instructor about some IT band stretches. It has not been hurting but I also haven't run since Tuesday. It could take awhile to heal and it could be an ongoing problem if I continue to run marathons.
I will probably be less fatigued next week and more on a routine. However we leave for vacation a week from Monday and then it will be the same thing all over again. This is one of the reasons we planned very little for August.
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