February 16- 23

Monday - Ran/Walk 12 minutes and Ran 3 miles

I was going to run this morning and break out of this unmotivated crummy funk.  It was so windy and pouring buckets of rain.  The kids have no school today and I have no child care kids.  So I took advantage of running during Rob's lunch.  It was clear and warm...no rain.  Even some sun.  I kind of miss the lunch hour run.  I like working too, but I did enjoy that midday break once upon a time when I had it.  I ran/walk with Hailey before I did the 3 miles.  She wants to run on it her own and not with me beside her.  So I tell her to run ahead.  I run and when I get to close to her, I walk.  Not sure if she wants to do it that way on the actual 5K or not.  I guess I'm fine either way.  I think she paces better when I'm not beside her.  My 3 mile run was great--felt wonderful.  Haven't run that well in awhile.  Last week kind of stunk.

Tuesday - Rest

Such massive rain today.  :(  I will run when it's sprinkling or raining lightly.  I refuse to run in the dark morning if it's pouring.

Wednesday - Swam 1 hour

The pool was busy this morning and we had two extra people in our swimming group which was kind of fun.  I need to get used to swimming with so many people again.  The workout was longer--a lot of 200's and 300's.  I felt tired at points, but pushed myself to keep going.  Was glad I made it there.  Yesterday was kind of a harder day and I was dealing with a stressful situation among some of the kids I did not see coming.  I tend to overreact to everything, but thankfully not in front of the kids.  I am getting pretty good about handling emotions and stress in a positive way around them and dealing with it deeper at a more opportune time.  I think we might have some harder days ahead, but I feel more at peace this morning with everything.

Thursday - Power and ran on treadmill about 27 minutes

Power was really good.  I had to keep the weight lower because I haven't been in a couple of weeks.  The tricep pushups were a killer, but still good to push myself on it.  I ran on the treadmill afterwards for about 27 minutes.  I kept it easy again...no incline and 6.0 speed.  I feel like I am getting back into things again after being in a lull.

Friday - Biked outside 1 hour

Took my bike outside for the first time since last fall!  Yay!  It was a good ride. I went from 4:30 - 5:30--nice it's lighter out later.  Going to Group Ride has really helped a lot.  The hills aren't quite so hard anymore.  I did not wear clips.  Just not real confident on the road with them yet...especially at 5 PM when the roads are so busy.

Saturday - Brick Workout:  Swam 35 minutes Stationary Bike 37 minutes

Good brick workout.  Swimming went great.  Worked on drills and even tried breaststroke again even though I am not doing it right.  Stationary bike is kind of boring, but with music and watching HGTV it was OK.  Good week of exercise despite it being somewhat of a stressful week...again.  :(  Mood wise, I've kind of been in a funk, but Rob & I were able to stay home tonight and play Skipbo and kind of talk about life in general...that was really helpful. I always seem to get in a funk in February...pretty consistent with my life.

Sunday - Ran 5 miles

Rob set the alarm for 4:30 AM to watch the Olympic hockey game.  I sleep pretty hard so I managed to sleep until 5:45 and watched the last half of the third period.  Then I ran from 7 AM - 8 AM.  I need to run Sunday mornings.  It's just so peaceful and quiet.  It was great.  It also was sunny.  The rain come later in the afternoon.  Hailey did her run on the South Salem track and by that time it was raining.  She didn't complain and ran a mile in 11:54 and ran 14 minutes straight with about a 30 second break...so proud of her!

Mood wise, I am pretty sure I have a form of adult ADHD on top of my anxiety.  My anxiety is pretty much under control.  I have not had a major setback in now almost two years.  I will always deal with it and struggle with it and maybe have another set back someday, but it's been significantly better.  I feel like adult ADHD (if that is indeed what I have) is not under control.  I read a website and I have so many of the symptoms.  I am not ready to go the medication route because I am not sure how severe it is.  There's some good lifestyle suggestions I can implement.  I hate throwing another med in the mix, but if it can help me focus better--I'll go see Dr. V and get his opinion.  I hate feeling like I'm broken all the time, but then again we are all broken.