I am not going to lie. This fall has not been easy. Rob was saying yesterday how sometimes you simply have to accept that. Some seasons are harder than others.
I started a new job in mid September. I suspected it would be a somewhat rough transition. I am still taking early childhood education classes on top of everything. It has been rough. It is hard to be an amateur and not know what I am doing. It is humbling and yet sometimes anxiety ridden to be corrected throughout the day. As lonely as in home day care was, working with a team of differing personalities and backgrounds has its challenges too. The grass is not greener on the other side of the fence...it is just different grass.
I don't miss in home day care and I would not go back to it if given the opportunity. There are far too many things I am thankful to be done with. I don't feel totally comfortable in this new job either, but I need to continue in it. I see potential and there are bright moments among the chaos. I am feeling more connected with the kids each day...even if they drive me crazy sometimes.
I have gotten two stomach bugs in a three week period...the first was worse than the second. The first one I had to miss a day of work. The second one I went into work anyway and pushed myself to get through the day. I lost over five pounds. Now that my body is getting back into normalcy, I am craving pop, sweets, and fast food. My exercise routine has not been normal. I have had a great week where I workout 5-6 times. One Sunday I put in over eight miles running. Then I have a week like last week where I ran once...and did nothing else.
My IT band has been bothering me again. I am finding with stretching, yoga, and rolling...it keeps the pain from coming while I run. Again I have not been consistent with that. I had hoped to do a half marathon last weekend, but decided not to once my knee started hurting again. I am thankful I did not do it because last weekend was when I had my second GI bug. Running would have been rough.
I wake up in the middle of the night and my brain races with things from my new job. Sometimes I can fall back asleep, but the other night I was unsuccessful. This weekend I was extremely tired that I slept in until 8:45 both Saturday & Sunday going to bed between 10 and 11. I took an afternoon nap on Sunday. I am probably sleeping too much because I feel fatigued and depleted energy wise.
I need to take better care of myself this week and exercise regularly. I need to eat more during the day and not rely heavily on the food we are provided. Often I am exhorting much energy helping the kids that I eat very little. I need to eat a healthy snack around 10 AM and 3 PM. I carry my water bottle with me around work and that seems to help.
Here's to a new week!!
