I am still dealing with off and on anxiety issues. Saturday morning it came on strong and I ended up not biking or doing any kind of exercise. I felt better by late morning. We spent most of the day at the Jefferson festival and at the pool. We went out to dinner and played games at night. I was feeling significantly better. Sunday morning I biked about 17 miles to Independence and back. It went great. I was very proud of myself for getting up and getting a ride in especially on a Sunday. The rest of the day was good. On Monday I slept until 7:30ish and did not exercise. I really did not have any anxiety issues that I can recall. I ran with Tracy on Tuesday. We ran 5 miles and I had no IT band issues. It was wonderful to run without any pain. It also was nice it was a bit cooler out. My anxiety felt high in the afternoon and evening. I felt out of control of my emotions and jittery. It lingered into yesterday morning. I did get up and swim, but I drove all the way the pool and realized my goggles were in my other swim bag. I had to go all the way back. I missed like the first 15 minutes of the workout. I could have stayed later since I didn't have to be home until 8. I probably should have. I just did not have the motivation. I wanted to be done since everyone else was. I realized how much I need my swimming friends or I don't complete workouts or try my hardest. My anxiety got significantly less as the day went on.
Some of the kids are going to bed too late and getting up super early...like sometimes before 6 AM. I felt like I had toddlers yesterday and this morning. It was like 2 year old tantrums. I about lost it.
I did not go to Power this morning. I decided when the alarm went off I needed the extra sleep. My body felt fatigued after swimming yesterday and then hockey last night. I think getting in 5 workouts a week is fine. I'm not going to beat myself up for taking two days off instead of one.
Thankfully I am eating better. Back to my salads and fruit. No more candy bar cravings. Or chips. We won't be eating great on vacation but we won't be eating crazy like at camp. So I think I will be OK.
Thursday, July 23, 2015
Friday, July 17, 2015
Fatigue, Tennis, and Back to Routine
Yesterday was the first day since coming home from Camp Calvin I did not feel fatigued or on edge. I took the kids to Neskowin Beach and we had a wonderful day. I had so much fun with them and I loved exploring a new coastal town. We were home at a decent hour too.
I went off my anxiety medication soon after school let out. I noticed zero change whatsoever. I was dealing with some stressful projects such as directing VBS, going to camp, Rob being gone for over a week, and the kids transitioning to summer. It wasn't always easy, but I felt in control of my anxiety. This past week was the first time I felt like I dealing with out of control anxiety again and it stunk. However, it was only one day (Wednesday) and I felt calm and totally normal yesterday as well as today. As Rob and I talked and sorted it out, we attributed to a bunch of other factors. Which makes me think I don't really need to call Dr. V yet and go back on. The fall will be a bigger factor once I go back to work.
The fatigue and emotional drain was frustrating. I hated being so tired. Coming home and getting back into routine was much harder than I thought it would be. For one I came home to lots of unfinished VBS follow-up and Camp Calvin follow-up which took up a lot of time. I was sitting at the pool on Wednesday and I felt like I could have literally shut my eyes and been asleep in five minutes. I'm used to having way more energy.
I did go swimming on Wednesday which I probably should not have. Usually I get to swimming bleary eyed and tired. But by the time I get in the pool I am woken up. I feel quite energized by the end of the workout. This was not the case. Erica and I had a great workout. I came home so tired and almost went back to bed. I felt better in the evening and played tennis for the first time with Cheryl which was way more fun than I thought it would be. We planned on doing this for a long time so I felt like I should not cancel on her. I really wanted to go. I just did not want to be a drag because I was too tired. It was a great workout. I can feel it in my arms. I would like to try it again.
I decided not to go to Power on Thursday seeing if sleeping until 8 would help. It totally did and I had way more energy. This morning I again slept until 8 and went to 9:30 Power since Rob has the day off. I didn't want to go at first, but I got more into it as time went on. I had a good talk with the instructor about some IT band stretches. It has not been hurting but I also haven't run since Tuesday. It could take awhile to heal and it could be an ongoing problem if I continue to run marathons.
I will probably be less fatigued next week and more on a routine. However we leave for vacation a week from Monday and then it will be the same thing all over again. This is one of the reasons we planned very little for August.
I went off my anxiety medication soon after school let out. I noticed zero change whatsoever. I was dealing with some stressful projects such as directing VBS, going to camp, Rob being gone for over a week, and the kids transitioning to summer. It wasn't always easy, but I felt in control of my anxiety. This past week was the first time I felt like I dealing with out of control anxiety again and it stunk. However, it was only one day (Wednesday) and I felt calm and totally normal yesterday as well as today. As Rob and I talked and sorted it out, we attributed to a bunch of other factors. Which makes me think I don't really need to call Dr. V yet and go back on. The fall will be a bigger factor once I go back to work.
The fatigue and emotional drain was frustrating. I hated being so tired. Coming home and getting back into routine was much harder than I thought it would be. For one I came home to lots of unfinished VBS follow-up and Camp Calvin follow-up which took up a lot of time. I was sitting at the pool on Wednesday and I felt like I could have literally shut my eyes and been asleep in five minutes. I'm used to having way more energy.
I did go swimming on Wednesday which I probably should not have. Usually I get to swimming bleary eyed and tired. But by the time I get in the pool I am woken up. I feel quite energized by the end of the workout. This was not the case. Erica and I had a great workout. I came home so tired and almost went back to bed. I felt better in the evening and played tennis for the first time with Cheryl which was way more fun than I thought it would be. We planned on doing this for a long time so I felt like I should not cancel on her. I really wanted to go. I just did not want to be a drag because I was too tired. It was a great workout. I can feel it in my arms. I would like to try it again.
I decided not to go to Power on Thursday seeing if sleeping until 8 would help. It totally did and I had way more energy. This morning I again slept until 8 and went to 9:30 Power since Rob has the day off. I didn't want to go at first, but I got more into it as time went on. I had a good talk with the instructor about some IT band stretches. It has not been hurting but I also haven't run since Tuesday. It could take awhile to heal and it could be an ongoing problem if I continue to run marathons.
I will probably be less fatigued next week and more on a routine. However we leave for vacation a week from Monday and then it will be the same thing all over again. This is one of the reasons we planned very little for August.
Tuesday, July 14, 2015
VBS Week, Camp Week, IT Band issues, and back to routine
I did not post at all during VBS week but I was quite successful at keeping up the exercise regimen. On Monday of VBS I did a short four mile run with Tracy. On Tuesday we both went to Group Power as well. On Wednesday I swam with Tracy, Erica and Kristen. On Thursday I did about a 14 mile bike ride all through Minto Brown. Friday I needed to sleep in as I was exhausted from the week. Saturday was the 4th of July and we were gone pretty much from 10 in the morning until midnight. I slept in on Sunday and took it easy most of the day. The kids were extremely crabby. We were all so incredibly tired that we did not even go to the pool. On Monday morning I left for Camp Calvin. I had not planned on exercising at all camp even though some girls invited me to run in the morning. I really wanted to run with them but I was not getting a lot of sleep nor was I sleeping well. I really had to sleep until 7:30 am in order to function.
Anyway I did two hikes while at camp. The two mile up and two mile down hike to Edgar Rock was harder than I anticipated. The kids flew through it and literally ran down the mountain. I could not keep up with them at all. Going up I felt my IT band acting up. It had been hurting since the marathon but started to go away. It was hurting more going up but I did feel it intensely going down. I hiked most of the way down alone which was quite lonely...and I wasn't sure on how to get back. Not safe. The counselor in front of me seemed oblivious to the whole thing but that is another story in and of itself. Thankfully I got back to camp.
The second hike was less intense mostly through a cave and river bed. I had no issues with my IT band or anything else.
Coming home I dealt with extreme fatigue. I think the last time I felt that tired was when Rob and I came home from Saint Martin and we slept on the floor of LAX for maybe 2-3 hours at the most. By the time we got back home, I was so happy to be see the kids but so tired I was nearly in tears. I slept Friday night from 10 PM to 8 AM Saturday, took a nap on Saturday from 2-4 and slept in on Sunday until 8 AM. No nap Sunday afternoon because I brought Hailey to camp. Sunday was a busier day but I got to bed a decent hour. I allowed myself to sleep in Monday at least until 7:30 AM. So now it's back to reality and it's been a rough transition. Hailey is away and I miss her. The younger two did not have the greatest day. I think tomorrow will be better. I did run four miles with Tracy this morning. My IT band started hurting the worst it has been around Mile #3. I almost could not continue.
I bought a foam roller this afternoon and rolled out the band. It hurt like crazy but I think it helped. I'm not going to run anything more than 3-5 miles until it's not hurting so much anymore.
We ate so terrible at camp that it's been a transition to get back to the healthy foods I was eating before. It's amazing how quickly you get thrown off from that. I am allowing myself time to transition but it's not been easy.
I did not sleep great at camp having shared a room with too many noisy middle school girls who were not told to go to bed which again is another story in and of itself. I think I almost to the point I don't feel as fatigued. Even this afternoon I felt fatigue setting in and just felt drained. I think in a few days I will feel even better and then we go on vacation where we will get some much needed down time and rest.
I really am loving summer and spending time at the pool. And getting extra time with the kids. It really has been a good summer. Looking forward to the whole family being together this weekend.
Anyway I did two hikes while at camp. The two mile up and two mile down hike to Edgar Rock was harder than I anticipated. The kids flew through it and literally ran down the mountain. I could not keep up with them at all. Going up I felt my IT band acting up. It had been hurting since the marathon but started to go away. It was hurting more going up but I did feel it intensely going down. I hiked most of the way down alone which was quite lonely...and I wasn't sure on how to get back. Not safe. The counselor in front of me seemed oblivious to the whole thing but that is another story in and of itself. Thankfully I got back to camp.
The second hike was less intense mostly through a cave and river bed. I had no issues with my IT band or anything else.
Coming home I dealt with extreme fatigue. I think the last time I felt that tired was when Rob and I came home from Saint Martin and we slept on the floor of LAX for maybe 2-3 hours at the most. By the time we got back home, I was so happy to be see the kids but so tired I was nearly in tears. I slept Friday night from 10 PM to 8 AM Saturday, took a nap on Saturday from 2-4 and slept in on Sunday until 8 AM. No nap Sunday afternoon because I brought Hailey to camp. Sunday was a busier day but I got to bed a decent hour. I allowed myself to sleep in Monday at least until 7:30 AM. So now it's back to reality and it's been a rough transition. Hailey is away and I miss her. The younger two did not have the greatest day. I think tomorrow will be better. I did run four miles with Tracy this morning. My IT band started hurting the worst it has been around Mile #3. I almost could not continue.
I bought a foam roller this afternoon and rolled out the band. It hurt like crazy but I think it helped. I'm not going to run anything more than 3-5 miles until it's not hurting so much anymore.
We ate so terrible at camp that it's been a transition to get back to the healthy foods I was eating before. It's amazing how quickly you get thrown off from that. I am allowing myself time to transition but it's not been easy.
I did not sleep great at camp having shared a room with too many noisy middle school girls who were not told to go to bed which again is another story in and of itself. I think I almost to the point I don't feel as fatigued. Even this afternoon I felt fatigue setting in and just felt drained. I think in a few days I will feel even better and then we go on vacation where we will get some much needed down time and rest.
I really am loving summer and spending time at the pool. And getting extra time with the kids. It really has been a good summer. Looking forward to the whole family being together this weekend.
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